SHE.HER.

hmm.. how shld i start lei..
okie..
today huiyi my really best buddy did smth v v sweet n touching for me..
she read thru my blog.. she did a ppt of her tots for me..
n she suddenly realise tat she doesnt seem to noe me..
mayb really cos i din show my other side out when im wid my frens or anybody..

no wonder im gemini..
gemini ppl r those who hav double character..
having double character seems scary lei..
hmm.. n oso they r mysterious..
i tink i am for some times..
i bet alot of my frens dun noe my other side..
as in de emotional.. tinking alot.. n how to say lei..
juz totally v different fr wat ppl normally sees me as..
hahas..
really sounds scary lei..

back to huiyi..
she was telling me tat i shld share my tots n feelings to my closer frens..
hmm.. but im already gotten used to share thru de blog..
though i dun blog much..
i tink i hav dis weird habit of 'having problems.. n i will juz tink thru myself n den solve it myself'
seriously i seem to like it tat way..
i tink is one of de way i tot tat it make me independent..

being reliant on ppl is nt a good thing for me to do..
tat's wat i tink..
though i noe ppl will tell me tat it's sometimes a good thing to do..
but im juz afraid i will juz take it for granted n den soon i will get used to rely on ppl..
n when those ppl could nt help me anymore den i will b juz left dangling over there..
helpless..
i dun like to b helpless.. so i depend on myself..
couldnt b one day i will b gone n den cant help myself rite?
everywhere i go i still can help myself..

aiya.. i dun noe wat im saying either..
is juz i dun feel like telling ppl abt ALL my tots..
i might feel super super super empty in my brain n useless la..

ya la..
can say im stubborn or whatsoever..
this is me ma..
i wont change it unless de situation really disallows it..
great.. im tinking really way too much le sia..

was tinking abt family stuff..
den i juz realise my bro still haven come hm sia!!
he's been coming home super super late dis few weeks..
omg.. wonder wat much stuff he can do outside la..
is like if i stay outside too long n im feeling uncomfortable at tat same time..
i will wan to go hm quickly de lorx..
n den if go out everything u wan to do u nd to spend $$$..
my god.. $$$..
haix..
but sometimes i still wanna go out la..
contradicting rite? humans r like tat..

talking abt gg out..
heehee..
i tink i hav already planned my holidays liao le..
holidays will b fr 7 jun to 22 jun.. so 16 days..
2 days for eileen n elanie..
some days for project..
some days to shop wid huiyi or whoever.. hahas..
at least one dinner wid pat winnie n xiaowei
at least one dinner n smth else wid yun fang.. (argh.. i still owe her bday prezzie)
at least 2 days wid liling n yingping ba..
n oso MUZ EXERCISE!!

i shall start doing situps crunches n pushups like wed night?
n oso sm stretchings..
im super tired now..
shld i go slp now n den wake up earlier to do fot tut n study abit for btm?
i shld.. cos my eyes super tired now..
zzzzzzzzzzzz.. closing soon sia..
i realise i type super alot today..
hahas..
okie la.. blog soon again..

i noe it's been long long long long time i hav posted anytink up here..
im juz feeling kinda bored wid de repeats in my life..
seems like there's nth for me to look forward for everyday..
how come i will tink in dis manner lei?
mayb i nd smth new n exciting in my life?

mayb ba..
winnie was like asking me..
wat's de new n exciting tink tat i wan in my life?
den i replied mayb someone new? =X
we start to talk abt love..
i rmb telling her.. we shld get someone tat loves us more than us loving him..
i noe dis is selfish.. but i really dun wan to get hurt again..
ya.. im getting emo..
aiya.. dun bother abt me la..
i tend to get emo somedays..

dun c me acting like sm clown or monkey teasing ppl n playing around..
i can get hmm.. emotional?
hahas..
many ppl dun c me getting quiet n tinking alot alot alot alot..
oh ya.. told quite a few ppl tat i love to tink alot when i bath..
i guess tat's de only time i wont get distracted or disturbed ba..
so start tinking alot.. abt everytink i encounter.. how i react n so on lorx..

oh yes.. went jogging/brisk walking wid eileen n elaine on mon..
den my body was like aching everywhere on tues lorx..
sian..
i shld do more exercise la.. im feeling more n more fat le.. -.-
sian..

talk abt changes.. becoming fat.. is oso a change.. so is nt being random..
i dun noe if i become more mature than b4.. or still de same..
but i tink i start to tink abit more different fr last time le..
but yun fang tole me b4 being mature means tat there's signs of boredom..
how? i dun wan to b bored n oso make ppl bored when they r wid me lei..
seriously i abit curious on how ppl feel when they r wid me lei..
heehee..
i ask eileen..
she says it's relaxing n fun to b around me..
hahas
den she asks me back..
den i was tinking..
i love spending time wid her, yingping, huiyi, winnie, pat, xiaowei, n many more..
de best times is de those few named above lorx..
heehee..

talking abt pat..
i miss her sia..
miss de time spent wid her..
she's so fun..
cos she likes to make fun of me.. n make me dun noe how to reply her..
juz can laugh off.. together wid her.. but she's nt sacarstic.. nt like some other ppl la..
dun talk abt her..
okie.. i oso love de talk wid her lorx..
after talking to her can let me reflect real lot..
she n my mum r really my role models lei..
heehee.. they both r real intelligent ladies..
muz learn real lot fr them..
i tink im really v v v v v v fortunate.. to hav so many ppl to guide me.. =)

okie la..
blog again ba..
wanna slp le..