SHE.HER.

Friday, August 17

it seems tat whenever im emo-ing
n feeling down..
i will post here ar?
hahas..

mayb i cant find anyone..
tat i can talk 2 ba..
or mayb my frens all nt used my emo side..

oh great..
im feeling like shit now..
y ppl love 2 treat me like spare tyre ar?
am i so good tat i am always treated like sm spare tyre???
y he tell me all tat?
y he tell me?
y did he trust me?
y y y?

oh..
shit him..
y did i cry yest night when i saw de sad part of de video?
y did i cry myself 2 slp yest night?
im so stupid..
as stupid as a pile of shit..

i tot he's juz a crush to me..
in one fine day b4 today..
i woke up n feel tat everytink is back 2 normal..
i feel nth for him le..
but y did i get so emo after watching de video?
y did i get so emo after talking wid yun fang?
omg..
im sm idiot..
sabrina is such an idiot

oh great.. my blog is in sm shit state..
all corrupted by emo entries..

Sunday, August 5

im v v v v confused now..
can smbody save me fr dis stupidness??

im feeling awkward..
feeling confused..
feeling angry wid myself..
feeling sad..
feeling tired..
feeling lethargic..
feeling tat im in nowhere..
feeling insecure..
feeling tat im gg 2 explode smhow..
feeling tat im gg 2 die..

but i dun tink he noes tat..
or feels tat way either..
it's too painful n hurting 2 b ignored..
i dun wan 2 b one-sided again..
im sick n tired of tat..
tat always make me feel insecure..
nobody will noe how insecure i am now..
i noe tat there's other ppl feeling worser than me..
but i cant care much la..

it's coming back..
i dread tat de same episode of history will come back again..
i dun wan..
n i dun tink tat i can take it another time..
please sabrina..
dun get too deeply involved again..
stop it..
u r such an idiot..

how can he like u either?
u r tinking way way way too much le..
he's juz being friendly..

GET OUT OF MY MIND LA!!
haix..

i tink im getting crazy le..
muz stop le..
write another time when im feeling more better..
OH STUPID SABRINA!

Friday, August 3

tmr's saturday..
n im v happy wid tat fact..
cos i can get 2 c him..
i hope he wont read my blog..
dun tink he has de time either..
hee..

im having fun talking abt him wid hayaty..
so fun..
she was saying tat my medicine will b his kiss..
lol..
even more fun is tat tmr's sat..
lalalalalalalala..

smiling ear to ear..

BUT

next wk is de last mentoring session le..
how how how?
i wont get 2 c him for at least 3 wks i tink..
sabrina is sad..
blah~
=(

but tink i can talk to him thru msn..
hee..
oh man..
i gotta concentrate on studying la..
sabrina..
cannot keep tinking abt him..
nd 2 study..
next tues is my cas test le..
den after no more cas le!
YEA! happy..

den after next wk de thurs will b my jap role play le..
de wk after tat will b study wk..
oh my god.. stress!
on 27th i hav law paper..
on 28th i hav business finance paper..
on 29th i hav cma paper..
on 30th i hav pca paper..

wa.. i nd de main papers 2 pull my grades up..
so muz really study lorx..
hmm..
so i shall go study now?
hahas..
okie.. bye..
i miss him.. (=