SHE.HER.

i wan 2 forget everytink!
i really wan 2 forget everytink..
i really wan 2..

i shall forget tat i nd love fr anyone else
more than frens n family..
tat's it..
concentrate on wk.. mentoring..
n wking out.. nth more..
i gt enough le..
i din cry when i gt injure..
i din cry when i noe he's attached..
i din cry when i get tat emo..
wat's happening to me?
or issit i dun even like him at all?
is juz crush?

im torturing myself..
tat's wat i tink..
mayb im nt..
mayb i shld try one day go slp earlier..
will i be able 2 slp?

im scared of alot of tinks..
im scared of being stupid..
im scared of being alone..
im scared of being hurt..
im scared tat i cant express de way i wan..
im scared of being scolded..
im scared of being ignored..
im scared of crying n being seen..
im scared of scoring low 4 tests..

de list goes on but i juz dun wan 2 say out all..
i dun wan 2 viewed as nth..
as spare tyre..
as odd one out..
as extra..

i juz wan 2 b simple happy..
issit easy?
but y to me tat's difficult lei??
tired.. real tired..
i tot im over it..
sian.. back to stage 1 again..
getting emo over nth..

bleh~