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Thursday, February 12

okie.. its been awhile ever since i last blogged..
hahas..

busy catching up wid my sch work..
busy doing projs..
busy watching shows when im done wid sch work n projs..
busy gg to sch..
n now intensive mugging for exams..
so busy mugging for exams!

dis will b de final lap when i can try at least a little bit in pushing up my gpa..
i noe it might b futile..
-.-
but at least i shld do well in dis exam ba..
not to feel guilty when im away in hk.. =D

yup.. im gg for hk study trip..
n den dates is confirmed le!
it will b 2nd mar to 6th mar..
so i wont b switching on my comp or hp in tat period..
unless i hav any access to comp in hk..
but i doubt i will hav de time..
i rather go shopping!
i actually made of wat to buy..
n im gg to make a list of who to get souvenirs for.. XD

hmm.. so i will den owe posts till after im back fr hk den..
cos i will b having
fa paper on 20th feb..
pfp paper on 24th feb..
law paper on 26th feb..

n 26th feb is one day i will look forward for..
cos i will b bringing cam to take crazy unglam glam pics all in tat day..
wid frens or juz myself.. n everywhere in sch..
*excited!*
n 27th feb lunchtime will b booked by amelia le! =D
sorry for letting u to wait for me till ur neck like giraffe le.. =X

hmm.. i wan a ktv session b4 i go hk lei.. *hint hint* =P
but oso after exams i will nd to pack my bags n prepare whatever i nd for hk trip..
im excited for tat too!

n oso on 12th mar..
there's celebration of learning!
is a prog to farewell us de a&f seniors..
i bet tat day sure alot of photo taking..
n sob sob de.. boohoo..
i do hope there's really interesting progs awaiting for us though.. hee.. =P
prehaps they shld really continue holding de a&f idol prog.. =D
i wonder..
wat actually awaits for me after my last paper!

okie.. start to prepare for mugging le!
be back soon i hope *cross fingers* =/

Monday, February 2

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Death
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

okie.. i did dis test.. hahas..
i was bored though..
n is true sia..
im damn scared to lose someone tat im close to..
den im oso scare to b alone n b disappointed..
hmm.. okie.. i shall get back to my ppt for presentation!

Sunday, January 11

dis post probably a quick one.. =D

i will update most of de gatherings i had..
ltr on! =D
i owe ppl posts.. i tink..

hmm..
i hav alot of tinks to do!
tuts.. which r recurring each week..
project research..
which im been slacking abt it each week..
IM SERIOUSLY SORRY ABT TAT.. =(
i will set aside time today to do it de.. =X

i will..
hmm..
but also i went shopping wid mum too!
bought 4 tops 2 bottoms alr..
i wan to get another jean skirts den shld b okie le..
COS.. heehee..
i wan to spend $$$ on hk trip to get quite a list of tinks..

n now im still aching fr my jog..
shall update abt tat too..
im unglam (as always) during de jog..
by clicking my hair up at an inappropriate place?
hahas!

okie.. now time to do pfp tut, fa tut, law tut
den proj!
juz in case no time.. change of plan.. i shall do proj after my pfp tut..
hmm.. set le.. *nods head*
=D see ya ya!

Thursday, January 1

hmm..
is alr 2009 le!

im still reflecting n tinking abt 2008..
there's tinks tat i regretted doing..
there's tinks tat i would do it de same way again if i were to repeat..

come to tink of it..
having new beginnings mean having more new responsibilities..
which i dont like..
n im graduating soon le..
y does time fly so fast de?
im coming to de time to make big choices again..

aiya.. brush off those saddening stuffs la..
*shoo shoo*
talk abt happy stuffs.. =D
jam gt new shades!
*envy*
i oso wan!
im so gg to get it when i go hk?
or shld i get it in sg?

hmm.. meanwhile i shld go change my specs 1st rite?
-.-
shit! im broke la..
anyway.. im nt really in de mood for blogging now..
cos i gt to do proj.. SIP report.. n tut!
die!
shall edit pics after getting all those done de..
den i will blog n post them up..

Saturday, December 20

okie! is been real long i din update le ar?
hahas..

alot of tinks happening ma.. =D
so busy to update lorx..

okie..
i will try to update those tat i rmb ba..

starting fr 28nov!
tat's my last day of sip le..
my colleagues had a farewell party for me n my other frens..
we went for ktv-ing session!
obviously nt at k box or partworld la..
is at ocbc recreation club..
they hav ktv sets sia..
always wanted to try ktv there..
but kept delaying..
hmm..
so we interns were forced to sing..
den my business head said tat's most i heard fr u ever since u came into ocbc lorx..
=X
hmm.. ltr on..
went out to get cheesecake n choc cheesecake for my colleagues..
fr don's personal pie..
heard fr them is gd..
shld try it some day ba..
hmm.. after tat de most ridiculous tink happen!
we went to ask my eye candy to take pic wid us..
as in me n yingbao went to ask amos to take pic..
so he actually din wan.. like ps ar..
den ltr! yingbao went to say.. she wan to take wid u.. *pointing at me at de same time*
crazy sia.. so i did take pic wid him la.. i will post tons of pics after editing! =D
ltr on me yingbao weng onn went for dinner at bakerzin..
de stuff there quite nt bad sia!
shld go again.. heehee.. =D

okie.. on 5th,6th,7th dec..
i had chalet..
is a last min one..
cos my aunt juz applied for it suddenly..
so i went wid my aunt n uncle to check in on 5th..
we put our stuffs down..
n den we went white sands by bus..
met up wid my bro at there too..
went to order a 35cm by smth-cm de cake..
so is largest one la.. -.-
(i guess my uncle n aunt r v generous when they were purchasing stuffs for my family)
de cake we spent abt 6 to 7 days to finish it.. v long rite?
hahas.. nt a big fan of cakes anyway..
okie.. so after ordering de cake.. went for sm grocery shopping at ntuc..
den to kfc.. for teabreak.. cheese fries..

den ltr on we went eighteen chefs for dinner..
had de omelette there.. forget de name le..
if only i wasnt tat full when we went for dinner..
i will hav a nicer meal..
but i tink food there nt bad lei..
=D
shall go there again..
wa.. i tink i hav alot of eating places i will wan to go back again sia..
hahas.. eighteen chefs, ms clarity cafe, bakerzin n many more!

okie.. so we went back for more tv session n comp session..
nt like de usual chalet style i went for..
hahas..
den my parents n my baby cousin came..
apparently my baby cousin scared of strangers..
like those she din see b4 for long period of time..
so she's scared of my aunt n uncle..
refused to get down fr my dad..
hmm.. after tat.. had chat wid my mum, aunt n my bro..
they all went to slp le..
left me using de comp..
den soon i was ko oso le..

next morning - 6th dec 08
i woke up de last.. hahas!
at around 10 plus nia..
had sandwich for breakfast..
made by my aunt.. ^_^
den we lazed around for awhile..
still dun noe wat to do yet..
den ltr decide to go bugis's mof for lunch..
b4 gg there.. i decide tat my slippers is really cannot make it..
so wanted to go hm n change it den come out..
den my aunt juz say aiya.. go over to bugis village n buy slippers ba..
so she bought for my slippers..
so happy wid my slippers..
i went to hav bento n dessert fr mof.. =D

den after tat me n my bro went hm to help out for my house's religious class..
den brought my baby cousin along to chalet..
again she refuse to let my aunt n uncle to hold her..
keep on sticking to me..
so we attempted to make her tired..
by letting her to climb de stairs up n down..
den ltr on.. we decided to take her for a walk around de chalet..
once she's stubborn.. wont even let my uncle n aunt to even touch her at all..
so i hold her hand n walk around..
BUT DEN when we were returning to chalet she refused to go in..
kept pulling me out..
cried like nobody's business..
she cried as if she was kidnapped sia.. -.-

i gave up n bought her to walk around..
den went wid uncle to fetch my mum fr hm..
den nth much happen after tat le..

den moving on to 17 dec!
last wed.. hahas..
i went to learn cycling! omg!
i noe it's so omg oso when u all noe tat i haven noe how to cycle at all..
but i juz afraid to fall down..
so i met up wid amelia, angel n loisa..
all 3 of them taught me to cycle..
HAHAS!!
they told me i noe how to cycle le..
is juz im nt confident wid myself to cycle on my own w/o them holding onto de bike
(n they oso said tat though they put their hands on de bike but is for show nia)
okie! i admit im timid la.. juz scared tat i will fall down lorx.. =X
den will hav alot of blood n painfulness.. -.-
n den due to jam's SUPER gd suggestion..
huiyi n him r gg to teach sanjee n me how to cycle on sat..
=X
greats..

oso on de 17 dec..
i tried to blade.. okie.. im trying my best to fall at least once on tat day..
i noe.. i too itchy backside.. -.-
hahas..
i was screaming n grapsing amelia's hands real hard n refusing to move..
HAHAS
u shld hav looked at de way i am tat day sia..
T.T

okie.. now im looking forward for tmr sun n mon!
tmr is to celebrate belated xmas.. a picnic cum lesson on bikes at pasir ris park!
sun is to partyworld wid eileen n elaine cum bday celebration for elaine.. =D
mon is to sakae sushi at t2 for luke's farewell cum gathering..

nowadays my outing seems to cum alot of tinks together..
cos ppl seem to b busier nowadays?
okie..
i still haven go out wid yingping yet.. n i wonder liling is angry wid me anot..
i still haven go out wid yingbao yet.. okie.. i din manage to jio her at all.. she's a busy woman!
i still haven go for ktv session wid angela, clara, jason, weng onn n oso yingbao..
i still haven meet up wid dagian weiyun n yingbao together..
i still haven meet up wid xiaowei for a long long time..
great.. n i nd $$$ for all dis..
n im lack of tat.. howhowhow?

i still wanna save up for de expenditure in my hk trip..
hmm.. i still comtemplating where to work right after my graduation n b4 uni..
but i still dun noe which uni to go n oso wat course to take.. probably finance-related..
i better at finance.. my accounting sucks..
tat's surprising ar? since im in accounting n finance..

talking abt accounting n finance..
i heard ppl talking in de lift b4..
tat is so LAME to have accounting N finance..
juz hav accounting can alr la..
WTH to them la..
u noe wat's variety to study ma?
ask juz study smth similar all thruout ur whole 3 yrs la..
letting de accounting ppl to study finance oso is to let them hav more exposure..
de ppl who set up de cirriculum tinks dis much u noe?
unlike u guys..
so angry when i heard tat..
wanted to go confront them n ask wat course r they fr..
CHICKEN MCNUGGET LA!

i also hav another tink on mind..
shld i hav private blog?
probably i shld ar..
okie.. i go edit pics den put up de next entry..
now to do SIP report.. proj part.. n tuts! OMG!
die le! T-T

Tuesday, November 4

there seems to b some moods tat u cant describe using words?
unless u r having it or even had it b4..
whenever i try to describe those moods..
i will go 'click.. click.. click *snapping wid fingers* n go u noe tat kind of feeling.. aiya.. dun noe how to describe la.. is tat of feeling lorx..'

hahas..
was tinking abt tat when i suddenly had alot of emotions jumbled up rite b4 i start to blog..

met up wid eileen n elaine yest.. sun i mean..
i was pulling everybody's time..
cos my mum wanted to go market..
so no choice went wid her..
n she sprained her leg!
-.-
so did abit of shopping le..
den went back hm..
actually meeting eileen around 130 de..
but my mum n my baby cousin keep giving me stunts.. last min de.. -.-
so was super late to meet eileen n elaine..

but they din complain or say me anytink..
so sweet rite?
we settled at kfc for lunch..
we updated each other abt our lives?
den we went around searching for eileen's belt..
but cant find n we kept side-tracking lei..
i guess we nd to go bugis or smth to find lei..
hmm.. we went arcade oso..
our usual place to spend super alot of time de..
hahas.. went around to play a few games..
n de last one was de dance dance evolution..
apparently i was so addicted to it..
den i asking them to play wid me..
they were all scared of me le..
im looking forward to de next outing wid them..
to play!
hahas..

better go slp le..
tmr will b busy day..
gg to work out wid yingbao! =D

Thursday, October 30

how do u feel when someone u respect or admire..
abuse their authority to overpower u?
frustrated rite?

doesnt mean i respect them..
tat means they hav de right to control me lorx..
okie.. u can tell me how to do tinks..
control till a certain limit..
n mind u de limit is really hmm.. small?
i dun like de feeling to b controlled..

but i gt dis bad habit tat i seem to like to control ppl..
BUT i will change de..
i will really change..
im working on tat now.. =D

talked to sanjee abt de "abusing respect"
cos my mum sort of abuse my respect for her..
she kept saying im lousy la.. den huiyi everything gd la.. den im nth lorx..

sanjee says tat i shld b myself..
dun care wat others say..
but to b urself.. dun u nd support fr friends and family?
when u realise tat u urself has no support fr ur loved ones..
isnt tat lonely?
seems like u r de only one in de world..
no one to b dependent on..
dis is really saddening..

i really cant imagine me having no friends..
everyone is stranger..
i wont b happy anymore..
i like to b surrounded by alot of friends..
de more de merrier! =D

misunderstanding is really scary..
some random tots of mine..

oh yes oh yes!
i wan to k!
i wan to meet up wid alot of ppl!
i wan to go beach!
anyone wans to go?
i juz wan to go there n sit to let de wind blow at me.. dis will b relaxing.. i tink?

hmm.. there's so many tinks i wan to do..
but everytime after work will b super tired!
n i oso dun hav enough time.. -.-

another random tot of mine: y ppl r so easily emotionally hurt?
i tink everybody will get de emotionally hurt tink..
juz tat some of them wan to put on a brave front..
n when ppl say they r putting on a brave front nia..
they will deny.. juz cos they tell themselves tat they dun wan to show their weak side?
hmm..

im been listening to dis few songs nowadays..
love story by taylor swift..
bu. wan mei by li jiu zhe..
bie shuo by li jiu zhe..

i like de song love story..
is quite different fr de usual ones i heard?
i juz noe is different.. but nt sure is different fr wat..

i like one of de sentences in de bu. wan mei song..
is " wan mei bing bu wan mei.. dang ni ai shang le shui"
direct translation: perfect is imperfect when u love someone..
de meaning i get out of it is tat when u like dis someone..
everything tat u tink is perfect abt u seems to b imprefect after all..
or could it be cos after liking someone tat doesnt like u..
de person will say tat actually u r too perfect n nd someone else tat's more perfect than him/her..
so all de perfections seem to be all de imperfections..
even u try to make it more perfect it will still not help at all..

dis bie shuo song is talking abt a guy secretly admiring dis girl..
n when dis girl has prob wid her bf she actually went to de guy's place to find comfort..
n dis makes de guy's effort of keeping distance away fr her all futile..
bie shuo means don't say..
so in de song.. it goes..
don't say tat u still miss me..
dis will make even more lonely..
don't say tat u still love me..
dis will make me wan to get rid of all excuses to keep distance fr u..

meaningful rite?
hahas..
today i gt alot of emotions sia..
but still i will b strong n independent girl.. jiayou!!!