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busy busy busy bee..

2009-02-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

okie.. its been awhile ever since i last blogged..
hahas..

busy catching up wid my sch work..
busy doing projs..
busy watching shows when im done wid sch work n projs..
busy gg to sch..
n now intensive mugging for exams..
so busy mugging for exams!

dis will b de final lap when i can try at least a little bit in pushing up my gpa..
i noe it might b futile..
-.-
but at least i shld do well in dis exam ba..
not to feel guilty when im away in hk.. =D

yup.. im gg for hk study trip..
n den dates is confirmed le!
it will b 2nd mar to 6th mar..
so i wont b switching on my comp or hp in tat period..
unless i hav any access to comp in hk..
but i doubt i will hav de time..
i rather go shopping!
i actually made of wat to buy..
n im gg to make a list of who to get souvenirs for.. XD

hmm.. so i will den owe posts till after im back fr hk den..
cos i will b having
fa paper on 20th feb..
pfp paper on 24th feb..
law paper on 26th feb..

n 26th feb is one day i will look forward for..
cos i will b bringing cam to take crazy unglam glam pics all in tat day..
wid frens or juz myself.. n everywhere in sch..
*excited!*
n 27th feb lunchtime will b booked by amelia le! =D
sorry for letting u to wait for me till ur neck like giraffe le.. =X

hmm.. i wan a ktv session b4 i go hk lei.. *hint hint* =P
but oso after exams i will nd to pack my bags n prepare whatever i nd for hk trip..
im excited for tat too!

n oso on 12th mar..
there's celebration of learning!
is a prog to farewell us de a&f seniors..
i bet tat day sure alot of photo taking..
n sob sob de.. boohoo..
i do hope there's really interesting progs awaiting for us though.. hee.. =P
prehaps they shld really continue holding de a&f idol prog.. =D
i wonder..
wat actually awaits for me after my last paper!

okie.. start to prepare for mugging le!
be back soon i hope *cross fingers* =/

what is your true fear test

2009-02-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Death
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

okie.. i did dis test.. hahas..
i was bored though..
n is true sia..
im damn scared to lose someone tat im close to..
den im oso scare to b alone n b disappointed..
hmm.. okie.. i shall get back to my ppt for presentation!

quick one

2009-01-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

dis post probably a quick one.. =D

i will update most of de gatherings i had..
ltr on! =D
i owe ppl posts.. i tink..

hmm..
i hav alot of tinks to do!
tuts.. which r recurring each week..
project research..
which im been slacking abt it each week..
IM SERIOUSLY SORRY ABT TAT.. =(
i will set aside time today to do it de.. =X

i will..
hmm..
but also i went shopping wid mum too!
bought 4 tops 2 bottoms alr..
i wan to get another jean skirts den shld b okie le..
COS.. heehee..
i wan to spend $$$ on hk trip to get quite a list of tinks..

n now im still aching fr my jog..
shall update abt tat too..
im unglam (as always) during de jog..
by clicking my hair up at an inappropriate place?
hahas!

okie.. now time to do pfp tut, fa tut, law tut
den proj!
juz in case no time.. change of plan.. i shall do proj after my pfp tut..
hmm.. set le.. *nods head*
=D see ya ya!

is alr 2009!

2009-01-01T14:28:00.003+08:00

hmm..
is alr 2009 le!

im still reflecting n tinking abt 2008..
there's tinks tat i regretted doing..
there's tinks tat i would do it de same way again if i were to repeat..

come to tink of it..
having new beginnings mean having more new responsibilities..
which i dont like..
n im graduating soon le..
y does time fly so fast de?
im coming to de time to make big choices again..

aiya.. brush off those saddening stuffs la..
*shoo shoo*
talk abt happy stuffs.. =D
jam gt new shades!
*envy*
i oso wan!
im so gg to get it when i go hk?
or shld i get it in sg?

hmm.. meanwhile i shld go change my specs 1st rite?
-.-
shit! im broke la..
anyway.. im nt really in de mood for blogging now..
cos i gt to do proj.. SIP report.. n tut!
die!
shall edit pics after getting all those done de..
den i will blog n post them up..

updates updates updates

2008-12-20T19:21:00.004+08:00

okie! is been real long i din update le ar?
hahas..

alot of tinks happening ma.. =D
so busy to update lorx..

okie..
i will try to update those tat i rmb ba..

starting fr 28nov!
tat's my last day of sip le..
my colleagues had a farewell party for me n my other frens..
we went for ktv-ing session!
obviously nt at k box or partworld la..
is at ocbc recreation club..
they hav ktv sets sia..
always wanted to try ktv there..
but kept delaying..
hmm..
so we interns were forced to sing..
den my business head said tat's most i heard fr u ever since u came into ocbc lorx..
=X
hmm.. ltr on..
went out to get cheesecake n choc cheesecake for my colleagues..
fr don's personal pie..
heard fr them is gd..
shld try it some day ba..
hmm.. after tat de most ridiculous tink happen!
we went to ask my eye candy to take pic wid us..
as in me n yingbao went to ask amos to take pic..
so he actually din wan.. like ps ar..
den ltr! yingbao went to say.. she wan to take wid u.. *pointing at me at de same time*
crazy sia.. so i did take pic wid him la.. i will post tons of pics after editing! =D
ltr on me yingbao weng onn went for dinner at bakerzin..
de stuff there quite nt bad sia!
shld go again.. heehee.. =D

okie.. on 5th,6th,7th dec..
i had chalet..
is a last min one..
cos my aunt juz applied for it suddenly..
so i went wid my aunt n uncle to check in on 5th..
we put our stuffs down..
n den we went white sands by bus..
met up wid my bro at there too..
went to order a 35cm by smth-cm de cake..
so is largest one la.. -.-
(i guess my uncle n aunt r v generous when they were purchasing stuffs for my family)
de cake we spent abt 6 to 7 days to finish it.. v long rite?
hahas.. nt a big fan of cakes anyway..
okie.. so after ordering de cake.. went for sm grocery shopping at ntuc..
den to kfc.. for teabreak.. cheese fries..

den ltr on we went eighteen chefs for dinner..
had de omelette there.. forget de name le..
if only i wasnt tat full when we went for dinner..
i will hav a nicer meal..
but i tink food there nt bad lei..
=D
shall go there again..
wa.. i tink i hav alot of eating places i will wan to go back again sia..
hahas.. eighteen chefs, ms clarity cafe, bakerzin n many more!

okie.. so we went back for more tv session n comp session..
nt like de usual chalet style i went for..
hahas..
den my parents n my baby cousin came..
apparently my baby cousin scared of strangers..
like those she din see b4 for long period of time..
so she's scared of my aunt n uncle..
refused to get down fr my dad..
hmm.. after tat.. had chat wid my mum, aunt n my bro..
they all went to slp le..
left me using de comp..
den soon i was ko oso le..

next morning - 6th dec 08
i woke up de last.. hahas!
at around 10 plus nia..
had sandwich for breakfast..
made by my aunt.. ^_^
den we lazed around for awhile..
still dun noe wat to do yet..
den ltr decide to go bugis's mof for lunch..
b4 gg there.. i decide tat my slippers is really cannot make it..
so wanted to go hm n change it den come out..
den my aunt juz say aiya.. go over to bugis village n buy slippers ba..
so she bought for my slippers..
so happy wid my slippers..
i went to hav bento n dessert fr mof.. =D

den after tat me n my bro went hm to help out for my house's religious class..
den brought my baby cousin along to chalet..
again she refuse to let my aunt n uncle to hold her..
keep on sticking to me..
so we attempted to make her tired..
by letting her to climb de stairs up n down..
den ltr on.. we decided to take her for a walk around de chalet..
once she's stubborn.. wont even let my uncle n aunt to even touch her at all..
so i hold her hand n walk around..
BUT DEN when we were returning to chalet she refused to go in..
kept pulling me out..
cried like nobody's business..
she cried as if she was kidnapped sia.. -.-

i gave up n bought her to walk around..
den went wid uncle to fetch my mum fr hm..
den nth much happen after tat le..

den moving on to 17 dec!
last wed.. hahas..
i went to learn cycling! omg!
i noe it's so omg oso when u all noe tat i haven noe how to cycle at all..
but i juz afraid to fall down..
so i met up wid amelia, angel n loisa..
all 3 of them taught me to cycle..
HAHAS!!
they told me i noe how to cycle le..
is juz im nt confident wid myself to cycle on my own w/o them holding onto de bike
(n they oso said tat though they put their hands on de bike but is for show nia)
okie! i admit im timid la.. juz scared tat i will fall down lorx.. =X
den will hav alot of blood n painfulness.. -.-
n den due to jam's SUPER gd suggestion..
huiyi n him r gg to teach sanjee n me how to cycle on sat..
=X
greats..

oso on de 17 dec..
i tried to blade.. okie.. im trying my best to fall at least once on tat day..
i noe.. i too itchy backside.. -.-
hahas..
i was screaming n grapsing amelia's hands real hard n refusing to move..
HAHAS
u shld hav looked at de way i am tat day sia..
T.T

okie.. now im looking forward for tmr sun n mon!
tmr is to celebrate belated xmas.. a picnic cum lesson on bikes at pasir ris park!
sun is to partyworld wid eileen n elaine cum bday celebration for elaine.. =D
mon is to sakae sushi at t2 for luke's farewell cum gathering..

nowadays my outing seems to cum alot of tinks together..
cos ppl seem to b busier nowadays?
okie..
i still haven go out wid yingping yet.. n i wonder liling is angry wid me anot..
i still haven go out wid yingbao yet.. okie.. i din manage to jio her at all.. she's a busy woman!
i still haven go for ktv session wid angela, clara, jason, weng onn n oso yingbao..
i still haven meet up wid dagian weiyun n yingbao together..
i still haven meet up wid xiaowei for a long long time..
great.. n i nd $$$ for all dis..
n im lack of tat.. howhowhow?

i still wanna save up for de expenditure in my hk trip..
hmm.. i still comtemplating where to work right after my graduation n b4 uni..
but i still dun noe which uni to go n oso wat course to take.. probably finance-related..
i better at finance.. my accounting sucks..
tat's surprising ar? since im in accounting n finance..

talking abt accounting n finance..
i heard ppl talking in de lift b4..
tat is so LAME to have accounting N finance..
juz hav accounting can alr la..
WTH to them la..
u noe wat's variety to study ma?
ask juz study smth similar all thruout ur whole 3 yrs la..
letting de accounting ppl to study finance oso is to let them hav more exposure..
de ppl who set up de cirriculum tinks dis much u noe?
unlike u guys..
so angry when i heard tat..
wanted to go confront them n ask wat course r they fr..
CHICKEN MCNUGGET LA!

i also hav another tink on mind..
shld i hav private blog?
probably i shld ar..
okie.. i go edit pics den put up de next entry..
now to do SIP report.. proj part.. n tuts! OMG!
die le! T-T

mood..

2008-11-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

there seems to b some moods tat u cant describe using words?
unless u r having it or even had it b4..
whenever i try to describe those moods..
i will go 'click.. click.. click *snapping wid fingers* n go u noe tat kind of feeling.. aiya.. dun noe how to describe la.. is tat of feeling lorx..'

hahas..
was tinking abt tat when i suddenly had alot of emotions jumbled up rite b4 i start to blog..

met up wid eileen n elaine yest.. sun i mean..
i was pulling everybody's time..
cos my mum wanted to go market..
so no choice went wid her..
n she sprained her leg!
-.-
so did abit of shopping le..
den went back hm..
actually meeting eileen around 130 de..
but my mum n my baby cousin keep giving me stunts.. last min de.. -.-
so was super late to meet eileen n elaine..

but they din complain or say me anytink..
so sweet rite?
we settled at kfc for lunch..
we updated each other abt our lives?
den we went around searching for eileen's belt..
but cant find n we kept side-tracking lei..
i guess we nd to go bugis or smth to find lei..
hmm.. we went arcade oso..
our usual place to spend super alot of time de..
hahas.. went around to play a few games..
n de last one was de dance dance evolution..
apparently i was so addicted to it..
den i asking them to play wid me..
they were all scared of me le..
im looking forward to de next outing wid them..
to play!
hahas..

better go slp le..
tmr will b busy day..
gg to work out wid yingbao! =D

respect

2008-10-30T00:17:00.004+08:00

how do u feel when someone u respect or admire..
abuse their authority to overpower u?
frustrated rite?

doesnt mean i respect them..
tat means they hav de right to control me lorx..
okie.. u can tell me how to do tinks..
control till a certain limit..
n mind u de limit is really hmm.. small?
i dun like de feeling to b controlled..

but i gt dis bad habit tat i seem to like to control ppl..
BUT i will change de..
i will really change..
im working on tat now.. =D

talked to sanjee abt de "abusing respect"
cos my mum sort of abuse my respect for her..
she kept saying im lousy la.. den huiyi everything gd la.. den im nth lorx..

sanjee says tat i shld b myself..
dun care wat others say..
but to b urself.. dun u nd support fr friends and family?
when u realise tat u urself has no support fr ur loved ones..
isnt tat lonely?
seems like u r de only one in de world..
no one to b dependent on..
dis is really saddening..

i really cant imagine me having no friends..
everyone is stranger..
i wont b happy anymore..
i like to b surrounded by alot of friends..
de more de merrier! =D

misunderstanding is really scary..
some random tots of mine..

oh yes oh yes!
i wan to k!
i wan to meet up wid alot of ppl!
i wan to go beach!
anyone wans to go?
i juz wan to go there n sit to let de wind blow at me.. dis will b relaxing.. i tink?

hmm.. there's so many tinks i wan to do..
but everytime after work will b super tired!
n i oso dun hav enough time.. -.-

another random tot of mine: y ppl r so easily emotionally hurt?
i tink everybody will get de emotionally hurt tink..
juz tat some of them wan to put on a brave front..
n when ppl say they r putting on a brave front nia..
they will deny.. juz cos they tell themselves tat they dun wan to show their weak side?
hmm..

im been listening to dis few songs nowadays..
love story by taylor swift..
bu. wan mei by li jiu zhe..
bie shuo by li jiu zhe..

i like de song love story..
is quite different fr de usual ones i heard?
i juz noe is different.. but nt sure is different fr wat..

i like one of de sentences in de bu. wan mei song..
is " wan mei bing bu wan mei.. dang ni ai shang le shui"
direct translation: perfect is imperfect when u love someone..
de meaning i get out of it is tat when u like dis someone..
everything tat u tink is perfect abt u seems to b imprefect after all..
or could it be cos after liking someone tat doesnt like u..
de person will say tat actually u r too perfect n nd someone else tat's more perfect than him/her..
so all de perfections seem to be all de imperfections..
even u try to make it more perfect it will still not help at all..

dis bie shuo song is talking abt a guy secretly admiring dis girl..
n when dis girl has prob wid her bf she actually went to de guy's place to find comfort..
n dis makes de guy's effort of keeping distance away fr her all futile..
bie shuo means don't say..
so in de song.. it goes..
don't say tat u still miss me..
dis will make even more lonely..
don't say tat u still love me..
dis will make me wan to get rid of all excuses to keep distance fr u..

meaningful rite?
hahas..
today i gt alot of emotions sia..
but still i will b strong n independent girl.. jiayou!!!

stunt

2008-10-23T01:05:00.003+08:00

i tink today i did a stunt..
hahas..

i made so many ppl worried..
1st - my mum..
apparently she made me left huiyi's number..
cos i go over her house to stay overnight..
REAL SORRY HUIYI!!

2nd - huiyi..
my mum called her when she cant get me..
so huiyi sort of lied to her tat we actually met up..
when we both r at different places..

3rd - sanjee..
after my mum called huiyi..
huiyi went to call sanjee..
dun noe y she called sanjee..
i tink she tinks tat im wid sanjee or smth..
n im nt..

4th - jam..
after huiyi called sanjee..
sanjee went to call jam..
tot tat i was wid him..
LOL!
fat hope tat i will b wid him alone..
so he wanted to go dig out samuel's number (one of my fellow interns)
apparently samuel seems to b nobody's fren..
so cant find his number..
so i remain uncontactable..

okie.. de whole story actually starts like dis..
my phone left 2 bars out of 3 b4 i went off work..
so i tot it would last me till i go hm..
but den my mum decide to call me a few times..
n i din feel de vibration..
so din pick up..

den after i realise my phone low batt le..
den switch off by itself..
so my mum decides to call huiyi den.. i tink la..
since she cant get me..
den she presumes im wid huiyi..
but i wasnt wid her at all..
i went dinner wid yingbao, jason, samuel , clara n weng onn..
fellow interns, colleagues n fren's supervisor..
den we went lunar bar..

when i reached there..
de person STR AWAY ask me for my ic..
so -.-
am i looking so young meh?
-.-
n she made me pour away little bit of water in bottle la..
as if scared i wont get drinks inside.. -.-
so malu can?
n we all gt dis chop.. den shows only under uv light..
but seems to fade away lei..

hmm.. is wed so is ladies night over there..
so there's free drinks lorx..
is lychee martini..
is so yucky can!
-.-
im so nt gg to drink tat anymore..
cos is like quite strong n bitter..
n i dun like stuffs tat r strong or bitter..
other than dark choc la..

den i was super scared tat i will b drunk lorx..
so drank only half a cup..
okie.. there's few more reasons y i drank so little..
1st is yucky..
2nd is i scared to b drunk.. though doesnt seem possible..
3rd is i will b gg hm fr int to house alone lei..
4th is on de way hm i will b wid samuel!
n i seriously hate him lorx..

hopefully he wont see my blog..
seriously i had tried my best to see de good side of him..
but today i dun tink so le..
he gt real excited after knowing tat de 2nd lv of de pub..
has girls pole-dancing n wearing v little..
he went up n watched..
den came down to attempt to bring us all up to watch..
SO OMG LA!! -.-
he told us tat look at de screen so fake de..
wan to watch den go up n see de real ones la..
den he was smiling away la!
so ewwwwwww..
den i gt disgusted out n asked to go up himself to watch..
apparently he failed to bring anyone up even de guys oso nt interested in watching la..
n i dun even noe wat's so exciting la.. -.-

tat's perhaps de worst tink tat happens in my internship..
i really dislike him alot..
he's so unglam..
ARGH!

i better go sleep so tat tmr can ignore him wid my best attitude..
hahas.. updates more soon..

thoughts

2008-10-07T23:14:00.003+08:00

i currently always having dis tot..
i tink i hav lesser n lesser frens le..
i tink i hav changed le..
is like i tink some of my frens start to distant away from me le..

is like when i nd a listening ear..
i really dun noe where n who to turn to..
am i getting autism?
i tink im getting it..
-.-
haix..

i start to realise tat i actually dun really bother to maintain de relationship sia..
wat's wrong wid me ar?
they msg me..
dependent on my mood if i wan to reply anot..
im such a bad fren.. i noe..
but den still my msg limit explodes everyday..
i dun noe y.. -.-

great.. i dun even noe wat im talking rite now..
i tink im starting to talk in a v boring manner le..
ppl listen to me will tend to get real bored le..
or really since last time de way i talk alr boring le?
omg..
seems like im quite a failure ar?
my EQ is dropping le..
or has it been 0 since young?

haix..
am i tat fussy?
fussy till tat i like to argue even de smallest details wid my frens..
am i tat unreasonable?
am i tat low confidence in myself?

NO LIFE!

2008-10-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

shit!
i tink i hav totally no life after de start of my sip..
OMG!!
cant believe dis la..

my life nowadays is like..
work sleep n tuition..
seriously alot of tuition cos my kids r having exams real soon!
haix..
worry for them..
tsk.. sound so mummy sia.. -.-

haix.. another tink is tat..
nobody seems to b free lei..
ask my frens out den they like..
aiya.. if u weekdays free den will b better la..
aiya.. sun is for me to rest de..
aiya.. i wan to slp la..
aiya.. y u say earlier? im meeting my frens le..

wat de la..
HAIX
wat's de world becoming sia..
nobody wans to go out?
-.-

i tink cos i din interact wid my frens much le..
den i get too un-normal le ba.. =X
-.-
i tink my whole post will b full of -.-..
seriously now i hav so so little to blog abt ba..
i gt no life le sia.. *sob*

oh yes..
my ear piece officially die on me..
1st de left side die..
den when i was happily taking out to listen to my mp3 on sat..
den alas! i heard nth.. den i tot my mp3 die on me..
den i checked le.. OMG! my earpiece die on me instead..
TSK TSK TSK..
it's only like a little more than 3 mths nia! -.-
it's so lousy!
HAIX
nth's right for me nowadays la..

better stop here..
if nt sure pollute my blog de..

things i dread

2008-09-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

i dread looking at my hp nowadays..
i dread de missing-someone feeling..
i dread de waiting-for-someone feeling..
i dread de boredom when i wasnt given anytink to do..
i dread de sian-ness of life..
i dread de waking early to do anytink..
i dread me being weak..
i dread myself being stupid..
i dread myself to be fat..
i dread myself to be short..
i dread myself being so weak again n again..
i dread myself being afraid of so many tinks..
i dread myself being so emotionally-weak..
i dread myself being ... ...

omg.. i dread myself so many tinks?
am i considered as unhappy soul?
i dun wan!
i feel so teary nowadays.. -.-
hmm..
i guess i hav slp den tmr will b better?
hahas..
okie.. updates tmr to c if i get any better? =D

yea!

2008-09-14T19:42:00.012+08:00

it's been 9 days since de last update..
okie.. on de SIP launch which is on mon..
i gt to noe tat i was attached to OCBC..
seems like those tat r attached to banks din get calls b4hand..

hmm.. im tasked to support almost de whole dept sia!
busy can?
help almost de whole dept..
but de prob is i even start learning de system..
n im alr busy le!
omg!
but den i like it.. heehee..
say im crazy!
i dun care..
like to b busy..

oh ya! rmb i was supposed to post up alot of pictures?
i made into sm ppt..
but den i will only post de slides up..
nt de whole ppt la..
who will go dl n c oso rite?
hahas..
oh ya.. talking abt working..
working = fat
working w/o walking much = even more fat..

is like after lunch i will either sitting down to do work or waiting to b given work lorx!
u c.. is all sitting down..
somemore i cant b standing to do work rite?
next time i go n work..
i MUZ suggest to my co tat we shld all stand up do work at least 1 hr after lunch lorx!
if nt sure hav big tights de!
HAHAS!!

okie.. i shall try if i can post up de slides anot!
*cross fingers n pray hard*
okie.. i went to print screen n crop it n do everythink wid it..
so i tink now i can post it up le finally!

okie.. dis 1st pic.. all de pics taken on de day 260408..
on fadilah's bday!
=D

okie.. dis one nt sure taken on which date..
i juz noe tat..
we r supposed to study after we clarify wid de tax cher..
den ended up we all start taking photos juz outside de cher's rooms can?
HAHAS!!
i saw a few familiar chers looking over..
LOL!!

okie.. is to celebrate eileen's bday!
is on 070808..
i made her a card!
din get de chance to take pic of it.. aiya..
nvm.. hahas..
did take pic wid main character.. eileen.. n oso wid esther..
heehee..

apparently i went k-boxing wid eileen n elaine!
hahas.. on 070908!
tat day though seems like im smiling real happy for de pics..
but b4 tat.. super pissed wid kbox ppl can?
de bill came in late n den 3 PPL came in to chase us out after only like seconds of interval lorx!
SICKENING SHIT!!
as if i wan to stay there long sia!
-.-
sickening.. told de last person off immediately he came in n chase out..
he juz shut up when i told him off..
if he dare to speak out.. I WILL SURE COMPLAIN TO MANAGERS!
oh ya! de stupid managers oso gt prob.. they like dun hav any other places to walk abt..
keep walking past our rm after 2 or 3 mins liddat..
-.-
u c la.. k box e hub branch de staff gt serious prob..
i shld try their service another time n c if they really hav serious prob..
if really.. im so gg to do service feedback form or smth.. or verbally oso can..

okie! too many pics taken so nd 2 parts.. dated 090908
hahas.. ppl present.. huiyi.. me.. jam.. n sanjee..
hmm.. can c tat we r having tons of fun ar?
heehee.. jam is prepared for photo taking! de top right corner of 1st pic is evidence!
im nt slapping him.. but doing sm choc mask for his face!
chocolate is good for skin! really!
there's ppl doing chocolate mask.. n spa or smth la..
hahas!
on de 2nd pic is mostly abt huiyi de.. since she's main character on tat day..
hahas..
oh ya.. on tat day me n huiyi dead fish le sia.. X_X
cos de night b4 went her house to stay over!
hahas!
spent almost de whole day watching shows can?
cos she had tuition.. left me n her mum at hm.. -.-
okie.. i was in de rm all time.. nvr come out..
hahas..
okie okie..
one of de pics in de 2nd part i like de most..
de one tat looks as if im telling story to huiyi..
"girl.. u c ar.. mummy last time v pretty de.. now oso v pretty de.. ... ..."
HAHAS!!
oh ya.. on tat day.. huiyi receive my, sanjee's n jam's presents..
de 'storybook', 'box' - fr me! 'bracelet' - sanjee! 'cake' - jam!
hahas..

de next 2 pics r sm of my favs.. so nt much explanation..
oh ya!
if any queries can ask me! =D
or even if u find im super pretty in those pics.. can ask fr me those pics de..
dun shy ar? hahas! =DDD

okie.. update some more other days ba..! =D

lalalalalala de boredom

2008-09-05T23:38:00.003+08:00

okie.. im bored..
super bored n sian..

anyway.. im eating m&m's chocolate!
dark chocolate one lei!
I LOVE DARK CHOCOLATE CAN?
but eat too much at once..
will get kinda sick of it..
cos it's real thick..

do u all hav tat feeling b4?
like u keep eating sweet stuffs..
den suddenly u juz carve for salty stuffs?
i do hav tat feeling lei!
cos i tink im been eating quite sweet stuffs for those nt so proper meals..
den kinda scared of sweet stuffs lei..
LOL!!
i tink ppl read le.. will go "eh.. i tot girls always like sweet stuffs de?"

me ar.. nt much a fan of sweet stuff..
so i prefer dark chocolate to milk chocolate lorx..

i oso like cheese! heehee..
i wonder if ppl celebrate bday wid cheesecake anot..
i wan cheesecake lei!
hahas!

OH YES!!
im excited!
cos im gg over to stay at huiyi's house on next mon!
YAY!! *jumping around in excitement*
she's oso excited tat im gg over her house n stay!
hahas!
im so gg to do so many tinks over there..
heehee..

AND!!
i forget to watch my fav show AGAIN!!
is like i forget 2 times le!!
now oso hav nice show lei!!
aiya!!
im missing so many NICE shows can?
HAIX!

who asks me wan to use comp lorx..
so give up on watching tv lorx..
anyway.. even if there's dvd out for those shows i miss..
i wont buy..
is like i watch once le.. den will leave it lying there de..
so waste of money!

JAM IS CRAZY!!
he's like "eh.. dun blog me gg showering hor!"
who wan to blog abt him la..
i rather blog smth else more interesting! (though i blog abt his dis entry)
heehee..

oh yes!
nowadays de favourite topic among me, esther, elaine, n eileen..
is abt eileen's love life..
n they juz like to b matchmaker lorx!
talking abt eileen's love life..
den oso can drag me in lorx..
saying on esther's tagboard.. tat anyone wanna noe me den can leave tag at esther's tagboard..
SIAO!
i can take care of my own sia..
is eileen tat needs help la!
N I WILL HELP ALOT DE!! (dun worry hor! eileen!) *cheeky grin*
HEEHEE!! *having evil tots in my mind*
oh yes.. they all love to talk abt marriage dis few days oso!
CRAZY!! they imagining me wid tons of babies.. n all r mine.. SIAO!

eh..
okie..
i dun noe how to continue lei..
hmm..
okie.. last sat i was whole day tuitioning n watching tv..
last sun went out wid huiyi, hayaty n sheetal!
is to celebrate huiyi's bday.. sheetal's bday n oso her leaving for osip..
she's leaving for australia..
n huiyi wans her to bring live kangaroo..
so tat she can c if kangaroos really hav pouch..
HAHAS!!
mon..
i hav tuition.. yingping wanted to ask me out on mon de.. but i was kinda lazy..
n oso wanted to get busy wid sm stuff.. but din really do it in de end! hahas..

tues..
i went out wid yingping.. cos mon din go wid her..
she wans to job hunt.. so accompany her lorx..
she went intentional plaza.. tat place SO scary can?
tat place has a few job agencies..
but we only manage to go fill up forms in kelly..
den i heard my agent's name..
but dun noe where's she la..
nvr c her b4 either.. amazing rite?
hahas..
den we came back to tamp.. de mrt is super packed la!
sickening.. wanted to eat subway..
n walked there n DEN we saw de place constructing..
-.-
so idiotic can?
my legs aching cos of de mrt 'ride' (stand) n all de walking..
den yingping oso say i had v gd determination/perservance..
hahas.. compliment lei! heehee..
den we went kfc instead..
hmm.. we went popular n ntuc to get stuffs..
n den was at de interchange le..
liling call!
din noe she went to work le until yingping told me!
hahas.. wat kind of fren am i sia..
i tink i will get retribution sia.. cos i kind of neglect lots of frens lei..
or i can juz reply their msges like de day after or 2 days after..
haix..

wed..
tuitioning somemore..
i wan to get more tuition! tuition as in i tutoring de kids..
so any lobang can tell me!
hahas..
mum wan to go out.. but when my tuition ends n i drag..
den heavy downpour when we actually preparing to go out..
so decided nt to go out.. stayed at hm..
watched "BROWN SUGAR MACCHIATO"
de show damn comical la! n v lame oso!
HAHAS.. hmm.. i like wang zi from bang bang tang..

de pic is wang zi! HANDSOME RITE?
in de show.. he's de smart one..
i oso like de girl tat really likes him in de show.. gui gui (ghost) HAHAS!!

thurs!
somemore tuitioning..
went to chinese physician wid parents..
den to m1..
den we went to popular..
den went to eat..
n den big book bookshop..
den dis funny ah pek wid his 2 grandsons i tink..
keep turning around n look..
while im choosing wrapper..
wat's so nice to look sia!
choosing wrapper only nia.. -.-
so i choose le.. damn faster siam..

fri!
tuitioning..
den supposed to meet huiyi at her house to go gym..
den she sian den i oso become sian too..
so postpone to next mon!
we muz do it on next mon sia!
it's a must!
so continue wid more 'brown sugar macchiato'
getting a little interesting le..
cos wang zi getting interested in gui gui le!
after like 123456789 tinks tat gui gui do to get his attention!

dis part onwards will b wat im intending to do! hahas!
sat..
tuitioning!
religious class at my house..

sun!
K-BOXING wid eileen n elaine!
we hav a so wonderful plan tat muz execute on tat day!

mon!
sip launch.. back to sch..
overnight stay at huiyi's house!

tues!
out wid huiyi, jam n sanjee!
we still haven decide where to go sia!
-.-

wed onwards will b start of my sip le!
till now i still dun noe im attached to which co..
i was tinking issit cos my co doesnt nd me to fill up application forms so i nvr get call fr them..

though im having SIP..
IM STILL AVAILABLE!
date me ppl!
hahas..

okie la.. i shall go get busy wid my stuff le..
type real long le!

2008-08-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

heehee..
EXAMS R FINALLY OVER!!!
i noe i was kinda slow to say..
when de exams were actuallly over like yest de 1130am lorx!

hahas..
hopefully dis time.. i will really do..
cos most of de questions im confident wid..
=)
i shld give myself a pat on my shoulder den..
i hav done well..
i din waste my time on my revision!
i din waste de time tat im supposed to slp n used it to study instead!
=D

happy wid myself..
went MOS n shopping str away after my paper wid huiyi..
sanjee wanted to join.. but she was kinda tired lorx..
so me n huiyi went on shopping spree..
i bought top.. shoes.. n ear ring..
i wan to buy more! when i get more $$$..
heehee..
but huiyi.. she bought super alot..
2 bottoms.. 2 tops.. 5 pairs of earrings.. bracelet.. 2 pairs of shoes.. a belt!
u c.. she's super rich la.. cos she juz gt her pay..
=)

i shall update more!
wanna work on alot of tinks!
im a busy girl again..
hahas..

happy!

2008-08-15T23:53:00.004+08:00

hmm.. today i was guai lei..
i actually studied thru 1 n a half topics of tax w/o procrastinating!
heehee..

i been procrastinating a few days le..
tinking tat i still hav alot of days to study all tat nonsense..
den when i really sit down n c de calendar..
n i went omg!
hahas..

i better go mug some more after posting dis entry..
today went pizza hut wid huiyi girl, sanjee, jam n rasyiqah!
we were all like super hungry lorx..
den we ordered food all tat..
n den eat..
den tat idiotic jam go n anyhow suggest de game 'de ultimate code' or smth..
TSK TSK!!
den we nd to drink pespi as punishment..
haix.. n den round 2 cheese was added to our drinks la!
i screamed at huiyi n jam when they tried to add it to my drink la..
but only attempt to save portion of it to be in my drink..
seriously.. i keep hearing de cheese telling me to save them fr drowning in de drink la!
tsk tsk.. hahas!

hmm.. den ltr 2nd attempt by jam only.. but i screamed at him again..
den he gt scared of me screaming.. hahas..
oh ya.. de 1st person kena de punishment is sanjee..
i was de last 2nd one to kena de 1st round of punishment
heehee..
hmm..

after tat 3rd attempt by huiyi n jam to put more cheese n chilli in my drink only la!
dun c y they dun put in sanjee de sia.. -.-
idiotic!
den fail to save again! cos they attack when i was kinda stoning lorx..

n den still left half a cup of pespi den we started to add more cheese n chilli! hahas..
den we played it de last time.. n lucky for me! i was de one who tink of de number!
YAY!
den was busy playing n drinking at de same time..
n den viola! huiyi was de ultimate loser sia..
she was so grossed out la!
hahas.. shld show de pics in de next post or smth..
i wan to post alot of pics sia!
=))))))))))))

oh ya..
either i was really too full till cant make it le..
or i was really grossed out by de game..
i PUKED almost everytink after eating them..
-.-
huiyi still asked me wat's in de vomit..
-.-
i told i cant c anytink.. but it's black in colour!
hahas..
everyone there was super grossed out..
b4 vomiting i was like gg to die soon cos of uncomfortable stomach..
den ltr i was like walking freely n happily to study at lib!

hahas!
hmm.. i shall go doddle wid my pics n post it soon!
yea.. suggested by mr jam..
hahas.. tat i hav tons of pics to post!
lols!
okie.. shall go doddle my pics n study my tax!

bored

2008-08-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

seems like im bored again..
ppl date me pls!
hahas..

i wan de old me..
i tink i kinda change le..
i hav toned down..
nth seems to excite me tat much le..
when i saw smth tat would usually excite..
i dun feel excited anymore..
how??
liddat i will feel super super super bored sia.. -.-

mains r coming!
OMG!!
i been lazing here n there la..
oh ya.. tat means my SIP is coming oso..
shit..
how i hope tat de ppl i working wid during my SIP will b superb nice ppl..
like my supervisor KATHERINE..
she's super super super nice lorx..

oh ya..
de way i play wid my baby cousin..
i tink will make ppl tink tat im crazy or smth lorx..
hahas..
i dun care wat they tink..
i juz wanna play wid my baby cousin ma..
heehee.. attitude them.. =D

i tink im on leona lewis craze now..
love her voice..
n her songs can finally make my skin get goose pimples..
after so long den i can finally feel touched lorx..
heehee..
LEONA! =)
i go listen her songs le..

boredom

2008-07-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

was kinda bored..
so stare at wat my baby cousin doing..
den find she's really cute..
hahas..
so fun n tiring to hav a toddler at home..

looking at her..
i somehow gt dis tot.. i wan to dote on her..
b close wid her..
b big sister to her.. nt juz cousin.. more than a cousin..
like a real sister to her..
dun noe y i gt dis tot sia..

oh ya.. talking abt her playing toys juz now..
she's oso being v v v random..
one moment she's playing her toys..
de other moment she's shouting at me..
as if i snatch away her toys sia..
hahas..

talking abt her being random..
she likes to attitude ppl too..
at home.. she LOVES to attitude me..
but likes to stick around me n play..
funny ar?
hahas..
i poor tink ar.. kena attitude by a real small kid..

my mum keeps saying tat when she grows up..
she sure start alot of arguements wid me de..
cos now she will start arguing wid me alr..
except we all dun understand wat exactly she says lorx..
LOL!! hahas..

today..
cant say it's exciting.. oso cant say it's boring..
spent almost de whole day wid huiyi..
nt really wid huiyi.. but beside her..
to study..
we went pasta mania to hav lunch 1st..
n we went to popular to get papers..
those coloured papers..
im intending to get more..
to make alot of tinks..
cos quite alot of frens de bday coming..
hahas..

oh yes.. after popular we went to ntuc..
cos huiyi girl wan to get water..
den i realise tat i forget to bring sweater..
luckily when we went to library..
we gt de L-shaped seats..
if nt i might get frozen in de reference section de..
hahas..

den studying halfway thru..
huiyi will always by default take a small nap over there..
v random rite?
den here came hui kiat..
was surprised to c him there..
cos he was waiting for his gf..
so he came library n study 1st while waiting..

now benji is stressing over a small matter..
but i tink he's really responsible guy..
den he doesnt wan to break promise at all..
hmm.. nice guy ar?
he's caring.. gives u de attention when u wan to talk..
but he forgets my name!! -.-
after like talking a few times to me lorx..

sianness..
my name nt tat easy to rmb ma?

i hav dis attitude..
if i encounter any problems.. i will juz take it like nth..
take it slowly n w/o stress..
like doing de problem as if i solve de problem so often n v easily..
n i dun noe if dis attitude is gd anot..
hahas..

okie.. i tink i will stop here today..
nth much to blog oso..
lol.. when i scroll up n c.. den realise i type quite alot sia..
den i still say nth much to blog.. hahas..

frustrated

2008-07-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

i guess i get frustrated easily nowadays..
i dun noe y..
i shall promise myself to change for de better..

juz now i was super pissed off wid my bro n mum..
talk abt my bro.. fed up..
i dun noe y he can juz stand my mum's nagging n juz continue wid his game..
i noe de game is real addictive..
but nd to put a stop at a certain timing rite?

n plus he's having o's dis yr..
which is like less than 2 months to it lorx..
i was tinking tat when im having mine.. dis time i will b studying for mini tests.. n mini tests.. n mini tests..
dun noe y.. his sch seems kinda slack in tat lorx..
i dun noe shld i say im worried for him or wat..
but normally me n my bro's relationship nt tat close la.. ya.. is nt close..

n oso i wan shout out real loud!
STOP BLAMING OF EVERYTHING!! YES! EVERYTHING!!
juz bcos something goes wrong doesnt mean nd to blame anyone..
65% of de time is somebody's fault.. 35% of de time is NOBODY'S FAULT!
n de 65% is nt juz one person's fault.. there are still so many ppl involved in de matter..

i really agree wid dis saying i came across recently..
"When you are arguing with your loved ones, PLEASE dont bring up those past matters."
de arguement will sure plus guarantee continue for real real real real real real real long..
n everyone will get real hurt even, given whichever party..

tat's y i super hate it when there's symptoms of arguement..
my whole day will b thumbs down le..
okie.. enough of rambling..

i keep fantasing of my own future..
i keep tinking tat i will b a real great fashion designer..
n den i will b flying here n there..
n den i will b super rich..
n able to dress myself up v nicely n tat..

i oso hav another fanatsy..
hahas..
tat i will b able to fly..
how do i start flying lei..
1st u start hopping..
n den u will b able to start flying..
but v few times(more than rarely less than occasionally) u nd to hop somemore on trees or smth to get some more energy..
hahas.. great fanatsy ar?

im been dreaming i will b hop n fly many many times le..
oh yes.. another dream of mine..
im being de 3rd party.. juz watching de show fr audience's pt of view..
de scene is there r a few mountains around.. den there's purple smoke around..
suddenly i saw there's a big dragon.. black wings.. n de most part of body is black..
except for de stomach area.. is purplish white..
den it held captive a princess..
den dis knight (prince charming) is climbing de mountain to save de princess..
but at dis pt.. i suddenly became de princess or smth den start to fall fr de mountain..
den de prince caught hold of me n bring me back to his castle safely..
*beams* =D i like dis ending..

hahas..
my mood is better now..
hope tmr i will b more better.. heehee..
tmr hav cac tut n cra tut..
dun really like cra.. cac still okie.. loves tax de best.. =) btm oso nt bad lei..
hahas.. random..
i will post more ba.. ~

2008-07-22T21:41:00.002+08:00

i suddenly had dis tot..
i wan to delete my negative tots totally..
i dun wan to b v v v sensitive in all de areas..
sensitive when is needed..
if nt i will b de most unhappy person in de whole wide world..

i nd to b satisfied wid wat i hav now..
wonderful frens..
pls.. sabrina.. pls dun change to b worser..
change to b better..
dun change to a nasty person..
someone tat cooperate wid ppl..
someone tat finds faults here n there..
pls dun b someone tat's liddat..

if i will b tat kind of person..
i guess i wont b happy anymore..
no more frens..
no more nt-tat-serious moments..
no more playing wid frens..

erm..
i guess my tots sure can link to dun noe where la..
okie.. stopping le.. *erasing tots*
hahas..

been abit confused dis few days..
been tinking abt issues..
i tink my heart is numb cold le ba..

oh ya.. random..
i really have a thing for babies and small kids..
mayb i really can work real well wid kids..
i shld further into childhood ba..
hahas..

i tink dis post is de most random post i hav posted ever since..
hahas..
im bored..
bored wid de way my life is now..
i nd nt juz some but alot alot alot alot alot alot of excitement now..
is nt juz short entertainment for a short short while.. but real excitement..
hahas..

project project project

2008-06-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

im been busy n lazy..
tat's y i din blog somemore..
but today smth happens..
n it makes me tink real alot..

good frens cant b good project mates..
seriously it's true la..
dun wan to further explain wat exactly happen..
say liao oso frustrated..
haix..

wat happen today actually makes me tink..
issit bcos of me everytink happens?
mayb if in de 1st place i shldnt hav join their grp?
den everytink tat happened recently wont happen?
will they b happier if im nt there?
will fadilah nt get so fed up n argue wid me if only im nt in their grp?
will hayaty n fadilah's relationship get tat tensed up if only i din make de decision to choose tat topic?

after so much of tinking..
i really afraid tat fadilah, hayaty, siti, hairin, sheetal or huiyi will hav tat tot of 'if only sabrina din join our grp at 1st nth will happen..'
if i din join their grp..
they will hav 6 ppl..
den there will nt b odd-one-out cos of odd number of ppl..
den no one will b left alone walking when we all r together..

i guess dis tinking will get scolding fr huiyi de..
sometimes i still hav tat tot.. even though i noe they dun mind..
but still im feeling insecure..

all those tots..
de ultimate cause is me feeling insecure..
shit la.. i shld get dis stupid negative characteristics inside me to outside n into rubbish dump..
haix..
all well.. me being scared makes me sad..

haixxxxxxxxxxxxxx..
issit bcos...............
i start to tink again..
alot alot..
okie.. i dun tink whoever reads can understand ba..

touching.. touching..

2008-05-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

hmm.. how shld i start lei..
okie..
today huiyi my really best buddy did smth v v sweet n touching for me..
she read thru my blog.. she did a ppt of her tots for me..
n she suddenly realise tat she doesnt seem to noe me..
mayb really cos i din show my other side out when im wid my frens or anybody..

no wonder im gemini..
gemini ppl r those who hav double character..
having double character seems scary lei..
hmm.. n oso they r mysterious..
i tink i am for some times..
i bet alot of my frens dun noe my other side..
as in de emotional.. tinking alot.. n how to say lei..
juz totally v different fr wat ppl normally sees me as..
hahas..
really sounds scary lei..

back to huiyi..
she was telling me tat i shld share my tots n feelings to my closer frens..
hmm.. but im already gotten used to share thru de blog..
though i dun blog much..
i tink i hav dis weird habit of 'having problems.. n i will juz tink thru myself n den solve it myself'
seriously i seem to like it tat way..
i tink is one of de way i tot tat it make me independent..

being reliant on ppl is nt a good thing for me to do..
tat's wat i tink..
though i noe ppl will tell me tat it's sometimes a good thing to do..
but im juz afraid i will juz take it for granted n den soon i will get used to rely on ppl..
n when those ppl could nt help me anymore den i will b juz left dangling over there..
helpless..
i dun like to b helpless.. so i depend on myself..
couldnt b one day i will b gone n den cant help myself rite?
everywhere i go i still can help myself..

aiya.. i dun noe wat im saying either..
is juz i dun feel like telling ppl abt ALL my tots..
i might feel super super super empty in my brain n useless la..

ya la..
can say im stubborn or whatsoever..
this is me ma..
i wont change it unless de situation really disallows it..
great.. im tinking really way too much le sia..

was tinking abt family stuff..
den i juz realise my bro still haven come hm sia!!
he's been coming home super super late dis few weeks..
omg.. wonder wat much stuff he can do outside la..
is like if i stay outside too long n im feeling uncomfortable at tat same time..
i will wan to go hm quickly de lorx..
n den if go out everything u wan to do u nd to spend $$$..
my god.. $$$..
haix..
but sometimes i still wanna go out la..
contradicting rite? humans r like tat..

talking abt gg out..
heehee..
i tink i hav already planned my holidays liao le..
holidays will b fr 7 jun to 22 jun.. so 16 days..
2 days for eileen n elanie..
some days for project..
some days to shop wid huiyi or whoever.. hahas..
at least one dinner wid pat winnie n xiaowei
at least one dinner n smth else wid yun fang.. (argh.. i still owe her bday prezzie)
at least 2 days wid liling n yingping ba..
n oso MUZ EXERCISE!!

i shall start doing situps crunches n pushups like wed night?
n oso sm stretchings..
im super tired now..
shld i go slp now n den wake up earlier to do fot tut n study abit for btm?
i shld.. cos my eyes super tired now..
zzzzzzzzzzzz.. closing soon sia..
i realise i type super alot today..
hahas..
okie la.. blog soon again..

2008-05-08T01:07:00.003+08:00

i noe it's been long long long long time i hav posted anytink up here..
im juz feeling kinda bored wid de repeats in my life..
seems like there's nth for me to look forward for everyday..
how come i will tink in dis manner lei?
mayb i nd smth new n exciting in my life?

mayb ba..
winnie was like asking me..
wat's de new n exciting tink tat i wan in my life?
den i replied mayb someone new? =X
we start to talk abt love..
i rmb telling her.. we shld get someone tat loves us more than us loving him..
i noe dis is selfish.. but i really dun wan to get hurt again..
ya.. im getting emo..
aiya.. dun bother abt me la..
i tend to get emo somedays..

dun c me acting like sm clown or monkey teasing ppl n playing around..
i can get hmm.. emotional?
hahas..
many ppl dun c me getting quiet n tinking alot alot alot alot..
oh ya.. told quite a few ppl tat i love to tink alot when i bath..
i guess tat's de only time i wont get distracted or disturbed ba..
so start tinking alot.. abt everytink i encounter.. how i react n so on lorx..

oh yes.. went jogging/brisk walking wid eileen n elaine on mon..
den my body was like aching everywhere on tues lorx..
sian..
i shld do more exercise la.. im feeling more n more fat le.. -.-
sian..

talk abt changes.. becoming fat.. is oso a change.. so is nt being random..
i dun noe if i become more mature than b4.. or still de same..
but i tink i start to tink abit more different fr last time le..
but yun fang tole me b4 being mature means tat there's signs of boredom..
how? i dun wan to b bored n oso make ppl bored when they r wid me lei..
seriously i abit curious on how ppl feel when they r wid me lei..
heehee..
i ask eileen..
she says it's relaxing n fun to b around me..
hahas
den she asks me back..
den i was tinking..
i love spending time wid her, yingping, huiyi, winnie, pat, xiaowei, n many more..
de best times is de those few named above lorx..
heehee..

talking abt pat..
i miss her sia..
miss de time spent wid her..
she's so fun..
cos she likes to make fun of me.. n make me dun noe how to reply her..
juz can laugh off.. together wid her.. but she's nt sacarstic.. nt like some other ppl la..
dun talk abt her..
okie.. i oso love de talk wid her lorx..
after talking to her can let me reflect real lot..
she n my mum r really my role models lei..
heehee.. they both r real intelligent ladies..
muz learn real lot fr them..
i tink im really v v v v v v fortunate.. to hav so many ppl to guide me.. =)

okie la..
blog again ba..
wanna slp le..

blog revive? mayb.. hahas..

2007-12-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

hmm..
mayb my blog's gg 2 revive back dis time..
hahas..

hav u tried gg to sch everyday for one whole week?
i juz did it..
mon to fri for lessons..
n sat n sun i went back wid my fren to study for exams..
n den almost everyday i stayed in sch till 6 plus lorx..
tried tat b4 ma?

hahas..
today de weather is mad.. i mean yest la..
de rain pours n stops n pours n stops..
den keep repeating de..
till like hmm.. 3 plus in de afternoon?
me n my fren waddle like sm ducks in de puddles sia..
when we are gg out for lunch..
den on de way de rain pours again..
so sudden de lorx..

almost turned into drenched chicken..
we 2 shared my umbrella..
n den my umbrella is like small n flimsy..
so when we walking in de rain..
my n her back were wet..
sm more my umbrella almost threaten to fly away..
when we are walking sm place tat has no shelter at all..

u c even de umbrella wans 2 bully me..
oh man..
dis few days nt enough slp..
n den i haven finish studying a big bulk of my study..
3 topics of international finance..
3 topics of fundamentals of investment..
4 tutorials of fundamentals of investment..
6 tutorials of international finance..

OH MAN!!!!!
OH MAN!!!!
OH MAN!!!
OH MAN!!
OH MAN!
OH MAN

so i shldnt appear here now..
hahas..
hmm..
really hope dis time i wil revive my blog..
change blogskin!
so sian la..
cant find anytink nice lei..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
nvm..
do tat after exams..
i wan to go out!

ppl date me pls.. =P

feeling naughty now..
hahas..

back again~

2007-09-26T12:01:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey
im back again!
hahas..

i did a test on my profile..
hmm.. abt women's wisdom..
lol..
but it's so true lei..

it says:
u r v curious n my mind always request for more info..
yes.. im v curious.. so almost everytink i will ask y..
ur jovial and youthful attitude will allow you to meet others very easily.
in addition, ur great capacity to adapt allows you
to mold yourself to any type of change.
It is probable that you are naive in your estimations,
which will often lead you to be involved in
unexpected and complicated problems or relations.
opps!
Mentally, you will be very sharp,
and ideas and solutions no one else would have conceived come to your mind.
ooooo.. my mind really v imaginative.. my frens always say i imagine too much.. act no la.. is juz when de stuff goes to my mind.. my mind will hav tots pop out immediately.. n den ppl tink de tots r too imaginative.. but it seems normal to me lei.. lol..

though you like freedom and become bored with people easily, you will be very dependent on those people whom you admire or love.
yea! hahas..
since u love tat person, y dun u depend on
those persons u admire or love?
is like since u like tat person..
tat means u trust tat person le ma.. so.. =)
You love the company of your best friends and,
especially, the opportunity of commenting on everything that happens to you.
I LOVE DE COMPANY OF MY GIRLFRENS!!!
hahas.. im getting crazy le..
i love to gossip wid them watever happens arund us.. so fun!
You are also very attracted to voyages to new and different places.
tink im curious.. so i like to go new places.. hehehehehee..

makes me tink tat where shld i go ar.. when i hav de $$$$..
who shld i go wid? hmm..
i wan 2 go japan(hokiaddo).. eygpt..
korea..
hmm.. when i tink of more places.. den i update my list ba.. =)
who to go wid? my girlfrens.. de more ppl to go wid.. de merrier!
yipee!
so i muz start saving $$$$ le..

i tink i stop writing le..
update more..
im gg 2 change skins again..
cos.. hmm.. esther doesnt like it..
hahas..
u c la.. jie.. i change my skin for u lei.. hahas..
tata~

emo-ing

2007-08-17T15:15:00.001+08:00

it seems tat whenever im emo-ing
n feeling down..
i will post here ar?
hahas..

mayb i cant find anyone..
tat i can talk 2 ba..
or mayb my frens all nt used my emo side..

oh great..
im feeling like shit now..
y ppl love 2 treat me like spare tyre ar?
am i so good tat i am always treated like sm spare tyre???
y he tell me all tat?
y he tell me?
y did he trust me?
y y y?

oh..
shit him..
y did i cry yest night when i saw de sad part of de video?
y did i cry myself 2 slp yest night?
im so stupid..
as stupid as a pile of shit..

i tot he's juz a crush to me..
in one fine day b4 today..
i woke up n feel tat everytink is back 2 normal..
i feel nth for him le..
but y did i get so emo after watching de video?
y did i get so emo after talking wid yun fang?
omg..
im sm idiot..
sabrina is such an idiot

oh great.. my blog is in sm shit state..
all corrupted by emo entries..

idunnoe

2007-08-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

im v v v v confused now..
can smbody save me fr dis stupidness??

im feeling awkward..
feeling confused..
feeling angry wid myself..
feeling sad..
feeling tired..
feeling lethargic..
feeling tat im in nowhere..
feeling insecure..
feeling tat im gg 2 explode smhow..
feeling tat im gg 2 die..

but i dun tink he noes tat..
or feels tat way either..
it's too painful n hurting 2 b ignored..
i dun wan 2 b one-sided again..
im sick n tired of tat..
tat always make me feel insecure..
nobody will noe how insecure i am now..
i noe tat there's other ppl feeling worser than me..
but i cant care much la..

it's coming back..
i dread tat de same episode of history will come back again..
i dun wan..
n i dun tink tat i can take it another time..
please sabrina..
dun get too deeply involved again..
stop it..
u r such an idiot..

how can he like u either?
u r tinking way way way too much le..
he's juz being friendly..

GET OUT OF MY MIND LA!!
haix..

i tink im getting crazy le..
muz stop le..
write another time when im feeling more better..
OH STUPID SABRINA!

saturday

2007-08-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

tmr's saturday..
n im v happy wid tat fact..
cos i can get 2 c him..
i hope he wont read my blog..
dun tink he has de time either..
hee..

im having fun talking abt him wid hayaty..
so fun..
she was saying tat my medicine will b his kiss..
lol..
even more fun is tat tmr's sat..
lalalalalalalala..

smiling ear to ear..

BUT

next wk is de last mentoring session le..
how how how?
i wont get 2 c him for at least 3 wks i tink..
sabrina is sad..
blah~
=(

but tink i can talk to him thru msn..
hee..
oh man..
i gotta concentrate on studying la..
sabrina..
cannot keep tinking abt him..
nd 2 study..
next tues is my cas test le..
den after no more cas le!
YEA! happy..

den after next wk de thurs will b my jap role play le..
de wk after tat will b study wk..
oh my god.. stress!
on 27th i hav law paper..
on 28th i hav business finance paper..
on 29th i hav cma paper..
on 30th i hav pca paper..

wa.. i nd de main papers 2 pull my grades up..
so muz really study lorx..
hmm..
so i shall go study now?
hahas..
okie.. bye..
i miss him.. (=

280707

2007-07-31T01:29:00.000+08:00

i will rmb tat day lorx..
hee..
de day i had most fun..

really muz thank everybody lorx..
wa..
i had so much fun while playing games..
while getting de fire up..
while getting de bee hoon back..
while sending amrita off..
while walking to de bus stop..
while bringing de stuff fr supermarket to de pit..
while helping yan long to get de stuff to de pit..
while walking back fr sending amrita off..
omg.. de whole day is so fun..
erm.. minus away de accpac test lorx..

it's so fun.. n tiring too..
oh ya.. n bee yin..
hee..
thanks to b my rocking chair..
it's so fun..
n im str.. v str..
i like guys de lorx..
:P

i miss tat day la..
y fun times always be over so fast..

n im confused le..

it's over le..

2007-07-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

im proud 2 say tat im over him..
really over him..
haven try out wat reaction will i hav when i c him la..
but i tink i will juz act as per normal lorx..

cos i everytime saw de msg my fren send me saying abt him n a girl..
my stomach will start hip-hop dance..
but few days ago..
i realise nth happens when i saw de msg..
when i was clearing my hp inbox..

SO IM PROUD TO SAY IM SO OVER HIM LE!!
hee..
WOOHOO!!
nd 2 celebrate it ar?
lol..

realise tat im been ignoring my studies.. n being emo lorx..
muz buck up now le..

IT'S A MUST TO STUDY LE..
i shall concentrate on my work.. mentoring.. n of course working out..

im getting fatter la..
i noe la..
muz eat lesser sabrina..
u r too fat le..
i wan 2 learn kick-boxing..
tink will b fun ba..
anybody has any lobang of tat?
i wan 2 learn..
my fren oso wan 2 learn together wid me lorx..

AMRITA.. u oso nd 2 search for a place to learn lei..
hahas..

okie la.. i nd 2 go n do my report..
ciao~
oh ya.. tokyo juliet is so so so so so so so so nice 2 watch la..
so muz watch if u gt de chance..
http://www.crunchyroll.com/showseries?id=677

okie.. really nd 2 go le.. =)

would you be there?

2007-07-06T01:27:00.001+08:00

de song that is playing over my blog..
is would you be there?
but more u hear u might get sian..
so hear only once or nt more than twice..
den u will love de song..
hahas..

here's de lyrics of de song..

if i were blue, would you be there for me?
and whisper in my ear that’s ok.
would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
and say you love me one more time?

if l feel good, would you slow dance with me?
and touch my lips with tender loving care
would you die for me
would you run with me
and never look back

would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be the one to take my breath away?

would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be the one to take my breath away?

would you be there?

if i will wait, would you still think of me?
and wished that you could hold me now
would you die for me?
would you run with me?
all the way

would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be the one to take my breath away?

would you be there to save my soul tonight?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be there to kiss my pain away?

would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be the one to take my breath away?

would you be there to save my soul tonight?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you’ll always be there to kiss my pain away?

would you be there?
for me..

forget forget forget

2007-07-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

i wan 2 forget everytink!
i really wan 2 forget everytink..
i really wan 2..

i shall forget tat i nd love fr anyone else
more than frens n family..
tat's it..
concentrate on wk.. mentoring..
n wking out.. nth more..
i gt enough le..
i din cry when i gt injure..
i din cry when i noe he's attached..
i din cry when i get tat emo..
wat's happening to me?
or issit i dun even like him at all?
is juz crush?

im torturing myself..
tat's wat i tink..
mayb im nt..
mayb i shld try one day go slp earlier..
will i be able 2 slp?

im scared of alot of tinks..
im scared of being stupid..
im scared of being alone..
im scared of being hurt..
im scared tat i cant express de way i wan..
im scared of being scolded..
im scared of being ignored..
im scared of crying n being seen..
im scared of scoring low 4 tests..

de list goes on but i juz dun wan 2 say out all..
i dun wan 2 viewed as nth..
as spare tyre..
as odd one out..
as extra..

i juz wan 2 b simple happy..
issit easy?
but y to me tat's difficult lei??
tired.. real tired..
i tot im over it..
sian.. back to stage 1 again..
getting emo over nth..

bleh~

2007-06-22T17:28:00.003+08:00

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

hey.. i did dis test..
i guess it's true ba..
prehaps i really live for dis love..
but still i haven find tat love..

1st post after change of new blogskin..

2007-06-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

hmm.. how's my new blogskin?
give sm comments lei..
hee..
nice hor?
i choose de ma.. lol..

so after one mth plus..
now den i post another entry..
cos im busy..
hee..
last wk of may mugging 4 exam..
1st wk of jun exam..
2nd wk.. proj..
dis wk.. proj n my birthday!

yest is my bday..
tink de most malu bday ba..
was doing proj in sch..
den went 2 hav lunch wid grp mates..
when we were finishing our food..
they started teasing me abt a guy.. nickname as d..
den suddenly i blurt out n say it's my bday tat day.. so go ahead n tell him lorx..
den ltr we went to lab..
continue to do our proj..
one of grp member, b..
went 2 tell m.. scandal bf..
super sian la..

n dis m start 2 sing happy bday song to me..
in de lab full of ppl de..
so loud smmore..
wa..
den alot of my classmates n coursemates in tat lab la..
wa.. sian..
den ltr his fren oso start singing after he stop 4 awhile..
den i was walking de other side of de lab..
where my fren sits..
den everybody starts wishing me happy bday lorx..

so malu..

so.. tat's de malu tink..
de happy tink is i finally meet lihua n kert le..
after so long lorx..
met lihua 4 dinner 1st..
den after dinner..
we went 2 meet kert..
den we started talking..
omg.. we gt so much 2 talk la..
is like we talked fr 9 plus to 11..
we still hav alot more 2 talk lorx..
i really wan 2 meet them up along wid pearl again lorx..
so fun..
we talked n laughed non-stop lorx..
kert wid stories..
lihua wid her stories too..
n me wid my crap n nonsense..
den if pearl's there she oso will add in more crap n nonsense too..
hahas..

SO FUN!!

how i hope de holidays r longer lorx..
den i can meet them up again lorx..
im missing de times wid them..

gosh..
suddenly i realise i still gt alot of tuts nvr do la..
zzzzzzzzzzzz..
gtg le..
update soon..
byebye..

lack of posts

2007-05-21T16:57:00.000+08:00

sorry.. hee.. din update again..
im v v v sick dis 2 wks..
hmm.. how sick i am?

on 11 of may, i start to hav sore throat..
den sat i shouted at de kids at mentoring..
tat sun i ate pizza..
i noe im "committing suicide"
hahas..
but on mon im quite okie le..
but i dun noe y there's a sudden change on tues..

i start 2 cough le.. =(
haix..
tat day i took mc..
stayed at hm..
slept fr 3 plus to 6 plus.. closing to 7pm..
den woke up..
den keep on coughing n coughing..
cough till i really tot im dying..
den thurs(17 may)
in sch my whole body start to get hot..
frens still tot i shy lorx..
no la.. is my face n ears auto become red de lorx..
zzzzzzzzzzzzz..

damn pai seh..
i guess i might b running a mild fever..
so after lesson..
went to c chi sin seh..
but i waited so long 4 de bus la..
den finally c le.. go hm..
eat de medicine..
but no use lei..
so continuing coughing till yest (20 may)

omg..
i start 2 feel giddy..
wan 2 vomit wateva i eat lorx..
den eat alot of medicine..
put oil on my tummy..
den okie awhile..
so rush my tut..
tat nd 2 hand by yest 1155pm
walau.. wanted 2 submit le..
upload finish..
de server tole me there's an error while trying 2 upload..
wth la..
zzzzzzzzzzzzz..
i became so fed up lorx..
den ltr de giddiness, bloated stomach, wanting 2 vomit
all come back la..
sianz..
but still rush de tut..
but den..
when i go slp..
tummy damn painful la..
sian la..

den today woke up..
tot im okie le..
but when i go sch..
damn malu la..
i was practically wasting my time 2 go 4 de tut lorx..
i was squatting in de toilet..
holding onto de toilet bowl..
coughing n vomitting all de while la..
haix..
den go lect after tat..
wa.. stomach damn pain during lect..
but still can tahan abit..
but den i yue lai yue xiang vomit le..
so after lect..
decide 2 go hm le..
but b4 gg hm..
went lib..
nd 2 borrow bks 2 do research on my jap presentation..
so go n find wid dagian n wei yun..

den after tat accompany dagian 2 wait her class 2 start..
her lesson start le..
den was walking out of sch tat time..
wei yun so sweet lorx..
decides 2 accompany me go c doctor..
i din wan 2 c doctor at 1st..
juz wan 2 go hm rest..
so went 2 c doctor..
zzzzzzzzzzzz..
nd 2 wait 4 at 1 n a half hr so as to c doc lorx..
so went lunch 1st..
den we kept talking..
den realise quite alot of tinks btw us r common..
hahas..
a really gd chat wid her lorx..
though im sick but when i started talking wid her juz now..
u might nt even noe tat im sick by looking at de way im talking 2 her lorx..
lol..
so im at hm..
stomach still pain..
though i hav eaten medicine..

haix..
tink will nt recover tat fast de la..
stomach flu lei..
tink nd 2 rest alot den can recover lorx..
tmr still gt test la..
haix..

so beta stop writing now..
tink im been talking quite alot of nonsense above..
hahas..
nd 2 go study le..
blog another day..
i still gt alot of tinks haven do yet la!!! gosh..
i nd more time..

2007-05-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

hmm..
v tired.. but i juz dun wan 2 slp lei..
n i dun really wan 2 go 4 yoga le lei..
cos it's real early n den im juz nt really interested le..
or cos im juz plain lazy..
hahas.. =P

i wanna complain sia..
high sch musical dance nt tat easy sia..
wa.. i really scared im tat clumsy tat everybody c le..
will either shake head or laugh at me lorx..
haix..
im clumsy la..
most of de ppl noe will say im v clumsy lorx..
so HAIX!!!

tink i beta go slp le la..
tmr still nd de jin shen (energy?) 2 do my wk..
oh gosh.. my tuts r piling up le..
mon smmore nd hand 2 of them..
1 damn time-consuming de..
1 is do liao can die de..
sianx..

hey.. im back.. (=

2007-05-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

hey ppl!
my blog still nt close yet la..
hahas..
juz during de holidays
im wking ma..
den after wk v tired..

so din really go online lorx..
hmm.. i update more tmr ba..
real busy la..
ciao~

hey hey

2007-03-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

hey!
long time nvr post anytink le..
hee..
aiya.. busy ma..
i noe i wk till 530 only..
but i come hm tired liao ma..
so left nt much energy lorx..
hmm.. mayb wkends i will try 2 post sm stuff la..
but muz c how 1st..
haix..
dis whole wk nd wake up early everyday le..
sianx..

n i keep on tinking of him still..
i tot i hav gotten over him?
haix..
i last thrus kenna a v v v bad scolding fr smone on phone lorx..
den i cried.. haix..
dun noe y cried lorx..
anywae.. long story..
when gt time den i say abt it..
after i kenna scolding de 1st person i tink of is him..
haix..

does tat mean anytink?
amelia tole me it means tat i still like him..
but another fren yun fang tole me..
im juz looking 4 smone 4 comfort n
y did i 1st tink of him is bcos it's been hanging at
de back of mind..
anytink tat happen 2 me i will wanna share wid him..
tinking of him will make me feel beta..

BUT..
tinking of him doesnt make me feel beta..
it makes me feel worser..
haix..

juz sm random tots..
i wonder if tat day after i kenna scolding n i call him while im crying..
will he comfort me or even pick up de phone?
hmm.. tink i beta dun tink so much ba..

gotta go slp le..
or else tmr gt big panda eyes le!!
it seems tat i really like blue n purple ar? hahas..

2nd day of wk..

2007-03-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today isnt tat scary as wat i tot i will experience lorx..
hee..
but my collegue say mon might b worser than yest..
hmm..
prepare meself 2 b on de tip most alert lorx..

i tink i will update tmr or sun lorx..
nd 2 go slp.. tmr nd wake up early too..
oh ya.. sun i dun nd wake up early le..
hee.. yoga class restarts next wk..
dun noe y too..

so today shall b a short post ba..
i go watch tv le..
muahahahahaha.. (=

1st day of wk..

2007-03-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yea..
hee.. i did update today ar?
as wat i had said yest..

hmm.. my 1st day of wk..
wa.. tell u ar.. i tink i sort of panic sia..
when there's so many ppl coming 2 u at de same time asking 4 help..
tell me la.. when de telephone has 2 lines coming in..
den there's visitors.. n plus de courier nd u 2 sign n stamp de co's stamp..
will u panic if u doesnt hav any experience of it?

n dun noe y my legs will ache tat much when i din really stand much lorx..
stupid la..
argh..
wonder how it will b like tmr..
my collegue will hav meeting fr 10am onwards..
till dun noe when la..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
phone calls i tink i can handle la..
couriers i tink i can handle la..
sm of de users i tink i can handle la..
but de prob is tat co has alot of foreigners la..
n their accent smtimes i really cant catch it lorx..
haix.. hope tat when de ang mohs nd help..
my collegue will b there lorx..

hmm.. let's hope tat tmr will b a beta day ba..
hmm.. i shall b keep telling myself tat..
i will nt panic when i cant handle anytink..

i shall concentrate on wat de person says on de phone..
if they say too fast.. i shall ask them 2 repeat it slowly..
hee.. tat might settle de prob..
but hor.. i scared they wan me 2 issue de permanent pass or smth..
cos i dun even noe how 2 issue lorx..
i tink tat one my collegue will settle ba..
oh ya.. muz muz muz rmb de most impt tink (abt de phone de)

n muz greet good morning/afternn/evening
n nt hello..
cos i dun wanna get scolding..
zzzzzzzzzzzzz..
juz hope i wont get sore throat la..
i tink my throat abit weird today at de co..

oh ya.. shld i cut nails today or tmr?
hmm.. tink i shall go cut now..
cos tmr i gotta teach tuition again instead of sat..
cos i gt course on sat..
gotta wake up early again!
haix..
sun oso nd 2 wake up early..
cos gt yoga class..
haiyo.. i dun tink will get up late these few wks la..
sianx..
nvm.. early birds get 2 eat beta worms rite?
hahas..
i tink liddat i can train meself 2 hav gd habits of slping n waking up early lorx..
nt like last time..
slp damn late.. den nd wake up early..
den go sch oso no energy lorx..

i seem quite lo saw (long-winded) today hor?
dun noe y lei..
hahas..
suddenly in my mind there's alot of tink 2 say lorx..
so juz type down lorx..
since i cant find anybody 2 talk 2..
hee.. i tink i stop here le..
gotta go slp soon..
if nt might feel tired tmr lorx..
update more tmr? hahas..
c 1st ba.. (:

TMR WILL B A BETA DAY!!
tat will b wat i will tell meself everyday.. yea!

woohoo!!

2007-03-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!
i finally found a job le..
dun nd 2 hear my mum de nag every morning..
asking me 2 wake up 2 find jobs lorx..
zzzz..

when i heard my frens all seem 2 hav job..
den i feel kind of useless lorx..
wahahaha.. finally can feel more useful.. lol..

hmm.. i wonder how's my 1st day of wk lorx..
tmr i den update more okie?
nd 2 slp early..
wk start at 830 lorx..
tink nd wake up at 6 or 630 lorx..
so long nvr wake up tat early liao lei.. hahas..
okie.. gtg.. bye..
i noe i v long nvr update le.. sorry la..
no time ma cos im watching hana kimi (aka hua yang shao nian shao nu)
(:
okie la.. update more tmr.. n i love wu zun!!!
really wan 2 xue rui xi say quan i love u!!!
hahas..
oh ya.. i tink im gg 2 change blogskins too ba..
c how 1st.. bye~

erm.. sm test i did..

2007-02-23T02:21:00.000+08:00

i noe i shld nt post entry now..
cos it's exam time n i shld b slping now..
but.. erm.. act nth impt la..
okie.. i did sm personality test..
i like 2 do personality test..
dun noe y too..

de results of my personality test..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you
because you are so straightforward.
You are an efficient problem solver
because you will listen to both sides of an argument
before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

ppl really like cos im strforward? hmm..
really meh? i solve prob v efficiently ar? hahas..

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic.
When you are in love,
you will do anything and everything
to keep your love true.

ooo.. im romantic.. i like tat.. hee..
hmm.. quite true abt de 2nd part ba..
nt too sure either..

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person.
And you believe you will pretty much
know as soon as you might know that person.

i guess so..

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively.
The opposite sex finds this very attractive,
and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms.
But how serious are you about choosing
someone to be in a relationship with?

erm.. i do? i tink dis is so nt true la..
ask arund n u will get lol..

Your views on education:
You may not like to study
but
you have many practical ideas.
You listen to your own instincts
and tend to follow your heart,
so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

ooo.. i really studying 4 exams..
it's so sian..
hmm.. practical ideas..
i tink i hav.. but i nt sure wat r they lei.. hee..

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs
but
have little chance of doing any of them
if
you don't focus on something in particular.
You need to choose something
and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

ooo.. sabrina.. focus!
hahas..
i tink i really agree wid last part..
i will do tinks tat make me happy..
but hu wont? lol (:

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career
and nothing will stop you from trying.

really ar?
act i like 2 try alot of tinks..
but i dun noe wat de tinks r..
i juz wan 2 try new tinks.. :P

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

erm.. tat's true lei..

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence.
You are unpredictable,
with moods changing as quickly as an ocean.
You might occasionally be calm and still,
but never for long.

really ar..
i guess so..
my poly frens can vouch 4 tat..
hahas..
they always say im siao de lorx..
cos dis moment i get real high..
i will start laughing like siao n till my face becomes tomato..
den ltr i will get damn sad..
4 dun noe wateva reason..
siao am i?
but i like it lei.. :P

guess i go slp le ba..
240 liao le..
bye..
oh ya.. de test is taken fr get to know yourself better
so if u free go n take de test la.. no harm.. (:

wat a day..

2007-02-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

guess wat happen today to me..
i left my phone in sch sia..
im so absent-minded ar?

haiya.. cos im really quite tired ma..
so forget i left my phone under de table after i msg lorx..
den so i happily came hm..
den was doing my stuff den i feel tired..
so wan 2 take a nap..
den wan 2 set alarm on my hp den..
went searching arund in de house 4 it lorx..
den realise i cant find..
so call my hp..
den smbody pick up..
den at 1st i tot wrong number sia..
so tole tat person wrong number..
den i call again..
den ask de person hu is she n stuff..
den after tat den i realise i left my phone in de classrm!!!
OMG!!!

but ltr when i rush to there..
tat person left my phone in my pouch n left it hanging over at de handle of de door la..
lucky i tink during tat time nt many ppl walking arund there..
so 谢天谢地 (means thank god n thank earth) nt letting anybody c my phone hanging over..
n having ppl found it n nvr took it 4 his/her own use lorx..
phew~

mayb it sounds dramatic 2 u la..
but is really liddat la..
im nt so bo liao..
2 create sm drama type of story 2 bluff u all lorx..

gosh.. tmr will b a long day..
gt mentoring.. tuitioning.. gg 2 amelia's sch open house..
n i wanna slp..
hmm..
tmr i come back wid more updates ba..
i cant tink str n properly now le..
bye~

cry on my shoulder

2007-01-28T14:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.. de song played on my blog nice ma?
hee..
de song is called cry on my shoulder..
but i nt too sure hu's de singer or grp singer.. only noe is DSDS.. dun noe wat it stands for..

if the hero never comes to you
if you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
What love can do

hmm.. if smbody sings me tat song..
i tink i will b v v v touched lorx..
i tink i will b really crying la..
hahas..

all well.. i guess i go do my wk le..
1. fa tut.. halfway done only..
2. econs article.. halfway done too..
3. revision 4 psychology..
4. ob tut.. gt 2 topics lei.. oh man..
5. bus stats tut..
6. econs tut.. left a small tiny bit.. yea!!
7. psychology test..
i tink if i tink smmore de list wont end de..
so i beta get these tinks done la..

okie.. byE! =P
tots of de moment: wat's wrong wid my head.. seriously in pain.. giddy.. n wanna vomit..
bleh~

2007-01-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

erm.. pai seh lei..
alot of days nvr update liao..
no mood la..
n no time..

cos arund dis period will hav alot of presentation de lorx..
juz had one dis wed lorx..
i love tat presentation sia..
but still i still tink de one in my sec sch i had is de best la..
back to de wed presentation..
it's on ob lorx..
den de topic is bullying lorx..
so my grp wanted 2 act out de different types of bullying..
hahas..

i became de bully.. wahahahaha..
sm other of my grpmates oso de bully la..
but de victim is muhammad.. lol..
he always bully me de lorx..
so now's my turn 2 bully him lorx..
so awesome feeling la..
lol..
but still is juz role play la..
hope he wont take it too seriously.. =P

den yest went running..
finally esther jie join us la..
last few times when we went running she cant come..
she's so busy lorx..
hahas..
we ran a small portion of bedok reservoir n den went 2 de playground there..
so long nvr play swing n see-saw le..
walau..
amrita v bad la..
she sat on 1 side.. den me on de other side..
den i haven sit properly on de seat tat time she went sitting down hard lorx..
so im in de mid-air.. all de way up there lorx..
damn scared la.. cos i scared i might fall down or when she came down i might hit my butt on de seat lorx..
damn pain de lorx.. i tried tat b4..
so scary la..
i was screaming all de way when amrita made me up in de mid-air lorx..
den she was down there laughing out loud lorx..
zzz..
but nvm la..
i forgive ppl v easily de..
amrita~ dun take it 2 heart okie? i juz gt phobia of falling down lorx..

cos i really fall down seriously lots of times la..
so im terribly scared i might fall down fr see-saw..
but i will soon forget abt it de.. (=

oh ya.. i juz started giving tuition 2 a boy..
he smiles tat time kinda cute lorx..
hahas..
his voice so cute lorx..
de 1st time i heard on de phone tot tat how come he suddenly gt a younger sis lorx..
actually is him la..
wahahahaha..
oh ya.. he's called yong lu..
i taught him 4 two lessons le..
juz now b4 im online i was giving maths tuition..
i guess i gt age gap sia..
cos he seems 2 b cant really understand wat im saying lorx..
but at last he understand la..
hee..
if he doesnt i die liao la..

wa.. i cant stop tinking of him these few days lei..
dun noe y..
his image will pop out suddenly fr nowhere..
so fr den on i cant really do much tinks but juz tinking of him..
alot of qn in my mind but it seems tat noone can ans me lei..
mayb he can.. but i dun wan 2 ask him..
v contradicting hor?
dun noe y my mind is liddat lorx..
now i noe y love hurts..
really hurts..
hurt like hell..
now it seems tat my whole body's in pain lorx..
like im living in hell la..
sound kind of sadist huh?
tat's wat happen 2 me these few days or prehaps these few mths..
when i heard songs.. those sad love songs kind..
i was listening 2 de lyrics..
tot it can describe how i feel..
but i realise there isn't any beginning at all..
since no beginning there shldnt b any ending ma..
bleh~

SABRINA!! u gotta stop tinking of him le..
concentrate on my studies now..
tat's de most impt tink now..
wake up!
mayb i shld slap myself 2 wake up..
mayb ba.. but i scared pain lei..
haix..

i gotta go do my wk le..
de post today long huh? hahas..
tots of de moment: i gotta.. need 2.. must.. FORGET HIM!!
u can do it de sab!! ganbate!!

he jun xiang is omg de handsome la..

2007-01-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

okie..
i found out wat's de name of de male main character of devil beside u le..
he's omg de handsome la..
gosh.. he's really HANDSOME la..
hahas..
he's called 贺军翔 (he4 jun1 xiang2) lorx..

he's awfully cute la..
next time show u all de pic where he attracts me de most..
hohoho.. =P

erm.. i found de lyrics 2 de song tat is played on my blog lorx..
there u go..
oh ya.. de song is called only love by trademark..
u wan de song? can get fr me la.. hee..

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

tat song is awfully sad la..
but still is nice rite?
hahas..
oh ya.. in de morning.. i juz became an acrobat la..

guess wat happen?
ya la ya la..
i almost fell down again!!!
i was getting down de bus..
i guess im really deep in my tots lorx..
so when i was walking down de bus's steps..
my heels trip de edge of de step..
n den it cause me 2 miss one whole big step la..
den i miraculously landed on de ground firm on my two feet lorx..
lol..
so i came sort of flying down de bus la..
hahas..
den luckily there's a big cement pole near where i stand..
so i quickly grab it to keep meself stable..
phew..
i dun wan 2 become sm animal lorx..
(tripping n fall 2 de ground wid knees n hands on de ground -- doesnt it look like sm animal?)
lol..

but still it's malu la..
wahahahahahaha..
nvm la..
nobody will rmb i came flying down de la..
;)

hmm.. guess i stop here le..
gotta do bus stats tut!
tots of de moment: bus stats tut!

hmm.. a day 2 b happy abt..

2007-01-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

hmm.. so long nvr post anytink hor..
hee.. sorry la..

hmm.. suddenly my mind go blank lei..
sianzz..

eh.. wait.. i noe wat 2 write le..
i recently juz finish a drama series..
act it's yest la..
is called devil beside u..
omg.. de main male character is so damn gorgeous la..
im drooling over him..
esp when he gt de killer smile on his face..
my goodness la..
so handsome la..
hahas..
i tot i wont like tat kind of 'bad boys' de..
but he's omg de handsome lei..
hahas..

after finishing tat whole series..
i felt abit empty lei..
like suddenly i gt nth 2 do le..
erm.. in actual fact..
i seem 2 hav tons of tinks nd 2 do la..
let me list it down ba..
1. fa tut 8
2. econs tut 9

3. ob tut - leadership n power & politics

4. econs article..
gt 2 lei.. but i only found 2 article lorx.. sianzz..
5. ob ppt
6. psycho quiz - intelligence
7. bus stats tut 9
8. gotta buy yoga mat!
9. econs industry report wid grpmates..

10. mbs online lect..
gotta sit thru it.. hope i wont fall aslp.. hee..
11. ohya.. n start abit on reading of psycho tb..
12. yoga every nite b4 slping..
wa.. i tink if i tink smmore.. de list sure go on n on n on de lorx..
=( so many tinks 2 do..

muz pull up my socks le..
*pull*
eh.. y nth de?
oh.. i din wear socks la.. hee..

erm.. i noe abit lame la..
but still a tiny bit funny rite?
hahas.. =P

hmm.. i guess end here ba..
gotta do all tinks i nd 2 do le..

tots of de moment: my nose is itchy like siao.. cos of de blackhead remover..
or was it tat im too sensitive?
p.s. u all muz b laughing at me 4 having blackheads rite?
okie la.. i gt blackheads la.. so? wat u wan 2 do? =P

2007-01-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Results of Your IQ Test

IQ Score = 111

What does your score mean?
Good job! Your performance on the test was slightly above the population average - well within the normal range. This means that while you don't excel in terms of the skills assessed on this test, you are still doing quite well.

Results of the Emotional IQ Test

Your score = 101

What does your score mean?
Your Emotional IQ is in the average range. Essentially, you're able to recognize and deal with your own emotions and those of others in a reasonably effective manner. Since your score is in the mid-range, however, you are not taking full advantage of your potential. By learning and practicing new skills and more effective ways of dealing with people, you could increase your EIQ.

hmm.. tat's de result of my IQ n EQ test le..
nt too gd n nt too bad?
hahas..but i still tink it depends on de situation rite?
den de lv might change abit?or it wont b fixed rite?
so tmr my IQ n EQ might b higher or lower ba..

tink dis might b de last post b4 de blogskins change..
hmm.. i wonder hu come here n read my blog lei..
hmm.. or hueva is reading now can go n tag at my tagboard..
telling me tat u hav read my blog?
juz treat as doing smth nice 4 me can?thanks! (:

hee..
let me c i still gt wat haven finish yet..
hmm..
1. bus stats tut
2. econs article
3. econs tut
4. ob tut
5. fa tut
6. mbs online lect
7. psycho online quiz
still gt anymore?
gosh.. i forget la.. let me tink 1st..
opps.. it seems alot oredi lei..
oh ya.. my grp haven touch on de econs industry report.. =P

erm..
my memory keeps failing these few days sia..
dun noe wat's wrong la..
muz buck up..
get back 2 old cheerful self..
dun tink too much le.. sabrina..
i hope so ba..
i guess i stop here ba..

tots of de moment: gosh.. im so tired.. my eyes r heavy..
oh man.. i forget 2 put de blackhead remover today.. sianzz..
tonight muz rmb!!

change of blogskins

2007-01-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

im gg 2 change my blogskins soon..
i hav oredi chosen le..
but i forget la..
i tink i gt stm la..

i chose it last fri de..
was looking thru de blogskins..
den settle wid 3 le..
den keep looking thru..
finally chose de 1 im putting up soon..

gotta wait till when im more free lorx..
cos i din get 2 do any of my tuts on de wkends..
cos gt religious class on sat nite n sun lorx..
so no time lorx..
so now come hm muz start rushing de tuts 1st..
oh ya.. nd 2 do de IQ n EQ test for psycho tut lorx..
wonder how much will i get lorx.. hmm..

i shall do it ltr tonight ba.. now muz go slp le..
if nt tmr panda..
mayb panda will b beta..
liddat wont hav any more energy 2 tink of him n..
haix..

tiny bit of me was hoping tat he's nt attached le..
but still cant change de fact rite?
his mind oredi hav smone.. so i tink tat's y im juz a fren.. n tat's all..
juz a fren.. nt close or wateva.. is juz fren..
when i heard tat news..
i gt confused.. dun noe wat 2 do..
dun noe where 2 go..
i do anytink oso wont feel comfortable..
go anywhere oso wont feel comfortable lorx..
it's really gosh.. painful la..
den is like normally ppl say smth funny i can laugh like siao..
but i juz laugh n den back 2 de laoya mood..

i shall make meself every moment..
so i wont hav time 2 tink of him n all de stuff..
but i really v scared if i meet him in sch..
even worse c him when he was on a date..
dun noe how will i react..
i really dun noe la.. haix..

tink go slp le ba..
if nt really will fall aslp in lecture la..
tots of de moment:erm.. i dun wan 2 tink of anytink la.. cos when i start tinking randomly den will start linking it 2 him de.. bleh~

oh man.. haven help my bro 2 print stuff.. die..

2007-01-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

sm fun stuff tat u wan 2 try out..
it's quite true 4 me..

1st - Grab a paper and pen.

2nd - When choosing names, make sure thet are real people you know.

3rd - Go with your FIRST instincts for effective results.

4th - Scoll down one line at a time.On the blank sheet of paper write down number 1 to 11 in a column on the left hand side of the paper.

1)Beside numbers 1 & 2, write any numbers you want.

2)Beside numbers 3 & 7, write down the names of 2 members of the opposite sex.

3)Write anyone name beside 4, 5 & 6.

4) Write down 4 songs title beside 8, 9, 10 & 11.
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de interpretation:
The number of people you must tell about this game is found in 2.

The person in 3 is the one you love.

The person you like but the relationship cannot work is in 7.

You care most about the person you put in 4.

The person you named in number 5 is the one who knows you very well.

The person you named in 6 is your lucky star.

The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.

The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7.

The 10th is the song that tells you most about your mind.

And 11 is the song telling how you feel about life.

u wan my ans?
hmm.. ask me personally la.. hahas.. =P

pai seh.. hee..

2006-12-31T23:43:00.000+08:00

hee.. pai seh..
tole u all tat gg 2 continue ltr yest after my dinner n tv shows..
but.. i watch till 1230 liddat lei..
den if i tat time switch on comp..
my mum will surely scold n nag at me la..

hmm.. tink continue ba..
okie.. i stop on sat (23/12)..
abt gg de place at afternoon..
hmm.. den reach there abt 3 plus i tink..
din check de time when me n bro reach there..
den after reaching we start discussing wat 2 cook 4 xmas eve party..
den we discuss till late 4 plus..
den off we went 2 toa payoh hdb hub there 2 shop 4 ingredients..
den reach is lyk early 5 plus..
n we decided 2 makan 1st..
when we went 2 de stall..
de auntie tole us haven start selling those food we wan so we waited 4 30mins..
wa.. damn hungry la..
almost gobble down de food..

tink i continue my dis long post ltr ba.. as in mon la..
wanna slp le..
gotta meet lihua 2 accompany her 2 register 4 yoga course..
oh ya.. i register 4 yoga course le! yea!
i noe quite 'long' la.. dis post..
but i really wanna slp la..
so ciao~

opps..

2006-12-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

opps.. i din update my blog for about 10 over days le ba
hee.. pai seh la..
no mood 4 entry ma..

nvm la.. now i shall post u all de stuffs tat happen 2 me okie?
hahas.. so i tink will b quite long ba.. prepare hor.. =P

okie..
erm.. where shld i start lei..
okie.. last sun or issit last last sun?
okie.. i mean de 17th of dec la..
tat day damn heavy rain la..
im out wid my religious frens la..
den sm of them r fr msia..
so show them arund lorx..
we went vivo city chinatown den bugis..
it was when we went 2 bugis..
de rain is really really really big lorx..
tell u ar..
my pants de bottom part soaking n my flip-flops sandals too..
so wet la..
den de uncle brought us out de keep on asking us 2 walk here n there..
in de rain la..
of course we gt umbrella la..
but still we gt abit wet la..

den after meeting i rush 2 meet my godsis lihua..
was v late 2 meet her la..
den smmore de bus din come until lyk 20 mins ltr liddat lorx..
so ended up cancelling de reservation 4 dinner lorx..
but still we went changi de sakae sushi 2 eat..
im damn full tat day la..
den tat day reach hm 12 liddat lorx..
mum's abit angry.. oh man..
but she din say anytink de next day..

den on mon (18/12) wanted 2 go sentosa wid amelia de..
but was oredi drizzling when i wake up lorx..
so cancelled de trip lorx..
but meet up her 2 shop 4 xmas prezzie instead..
bought 2 prezzies..
1 for him.. n de other 1 for de exchange of prezzie at my religious party..
den tat day was wondering when can i pass de prezzie 2 him or am i even gg 2 pass it 2 him lorx..

so i bought prezzie 4 him.. u all guess did i pass 2 him?
hmm.. shant tell u all now..
read on ba.. den u will get de ans..
hee.. =P

den tues (19/12)..
i was at hm i tink..
ya.. i was at hm.. so tat day abit sian ba..

den comes wed (20/12)
i went sch do ob n mbs project..
den when we were juz starting 2 do our mbs project
1 of my fren nd 2 go le.. 4 her dental appointment..
so she went off..
den arund 115 liddat..
another fren nd go out wid frens..
so oso went off..
den arund 130 liddat..
i suddenly rmb i gotta wk at 2 lorx..
smmore nvr eat my lunch lorx..
so went 2 grab two sandwiches..
n tat's my lunch..
went 2 teach 2 classes..
tell u ar.. abit quite saddening la..
cos de students there go huh? dis cher ar? aiya.. i dun lyk dis cher lorx..
haix.. am i really nt tat nice?
im fun when im playing wid them ma.. they r all laughing ma..
how come liddat?
hmm.. go there den my head oso almost get injured la..
tat idiot jacky la.. keep hitting my head wheneva he c me la..
but still gt others.. quite shock when c me..
quite alot of them goes ai?! y u here? den *wave hand*
hahas..
tat day tell u ar.. damn tired la..
shag le~

thrus.. i went back sch again..
2 continue wid my mbs project..
den de fren tat has dental appointment yest oso nd 2 accompany her sis 2 dental appointment today..
so we ate our lunch in sch..
den i went 2 cs wid wei yun 2 shop xmas prezzie
cos i nd 2 more.. den she gotta get 1 too..
act is wan 2 go out wid wei yun on fri de..

den amrita msg me..
saying tat we cant meet ltr on as in after project..
so i ask wei yun go out tat day instead..
den ltr amrita call me saying can go out together le..
lol..
so when wei yun done wid her own shopping..
she went hm.. den left me walking arund cs aimlessly..
while waiting 4 amrita lorx..
den we went 2 pp 2 shop 4 prezzie..
bought 2 again..
den when we were preparing 2 cross..
erm.. act nt crossing..
cos de traffic light left 2 secs 2 cross lorx..
so i pulled amrita back.. hahas..
den i saw a guy smiling n waving at me..
at 1st din noe is hu lorx..
so stare abit.. den realise is ivan chan.. a pri sch classmate!
wa.. he shot up lyk a long bean sia..
v v tall lorx..
when i realise it's him i smile n wave back..
hmm.. tat day i reach at abt 7 plus
i tink la..
miss de 1st portion of tian wai fei xian..
de 7pm show on ch u.. so nice n touching la..
de songs oso nice lorx..
i love de song by hu ge(de main male character of de show)
de song is called tian liang yi hou (after sunrise)
i noe is a damn sad song.. but is nice la..

hmm.. den fri..
i stayed at hm.. finally after so many days out i can stay at hm..
was suddenly feeling so tired lorx..
dun noe y too..

den sat..
my religious fren ask me n my bro go de place where we hav our xmas party 2 help out 1st..
so went there on sat afternoon..
though de party is on sun..

erm.. i nd 2 go bath le.. i continue wid dis post again ltr after i watch my show..

hee.. pai seh..

2006-12-19T18:54:00.000+08:00

hee.. pai seh..
i nvr been blogging since long le..
im finally free 2 blog le..

now having break..
as in holidays..

hmm.. so dis entry might b a long 1 i tink..
it's raining now again..
today whole day's been raining non-stop sia..
haix.. luckily sort of done wid my shopping of prezzies..
tmr i gotta 2 wrap them up..
if nt enuf gotta buy smmore..
im gg bankrupt liao la..

nvm.. gg 2 wk as temp teacher tmr..
my last time de childcare person msg me..
ask me 2 wk for 4 hrs..
finally gg back there n c them le..
i wonder if they still rmb me anot lorx..
n oso wich students will i teach tmr lorx..

i tink tmr de mood during de project will b quite sian ba..
mayb ba..
c how ba..
my fren's gg 2 help me do my nails.. hee..
hmm..
now my brain lyk cant focus lei..
alot of tinks gg on at de same time lorx..

im so gg 2 get myself back 2 de old self..
where i will get happy over even small stuffs n so carefree..

haiya.. dun talk abt those unhappy stuffs..
those unhappy feelings will soon go away le..
hmm..
rmb tat when i gt 2 papers on thrus..
de 2 most dread papers lorx..
both on de same day la..
so de day b4 de 1st paper of thrus im oredi so worried abt de 2 papers..
cos de 2nd paper i din study finish lorx..
sianx..
so damn scared..
wanted 2 talk 2 smbody..
but look at de contact list hu r online..
only left him tat can clam me i tink?
so talk 2 him..
den he said gd luck n asked me 2 jia you(sm sort of cheering la)
den ltr in de midnite..
b4 i went 2 slp im still scared
so ask him 2 cheer me up again..
hee..
he cheered n wish me gd luck n said tat i can do it de (in chi)
hahas..

but ended up im still scared 4 de 2nd paper..
so since in btw de papers there's time..
i went hm n studied lorx..
wa.. tell u ar..
tat's 1st time im so scared 4 smth la..
im scared till i cant eat properly..
den gt stomachache.. feeling giddy n worst.. wan 2 vomit lorx..
but ltr when im done wid my studies..
i can eat more down.. but still hav mild stomachache..

oh man.. my left hand abit cold now lei..
n i wan 2 learn yoga la..
i noe both no link la.. but i wan 2 learn yoga n my left hand is cold..
hahas..

oh ya.. took sm pics of de baby tat my mum babysit de..
he's damn cute la..
u will c y in those pics n de tinks im gonna say..

1st.. he will climb up de sofa wid 1 hand grabbing de pillow u c in de pic..
okie.. he's nt so pro la..
so wid our help of supporting his butt.. he manage 2 get into tat position..
dis time round he oso gt a biscuit on his right hand.. hahas..
den turns right n look..

2nd.. he now turns left n look..
hahas..
he looking as if he wans 2 cross road lorx..
u gotta look right left right.. den u can cross de road..
hahas..
n he has lots of actions.. while sitting on de sofa lorx..
de next few pics will show sm of his actions..

u c la.. dun he has lots of actions?
hahas..
still lots more.. i din take pic of lorx..
den next 2 pics r de cutest ones lorx..

issit he cute in dis pic? idin even ask him 2 smile lei..
he juz knew there's a camera over there taking him.. den he smiles le..
hahas..

is a pity tat i din get enough time 2 zoom in lorx..
if nt will b cuter than de previous photo lorx..
dis time he's laughing lorx..
c he really noes how 2 relax la..
went 2 take another pillow n place it at de back lorx..

i tink it's enough 4 today liao ba..
gg 2 talk abt de sunday trip wid my religious in de next post ba..
nd 2 slp la.. gotta do project n wk ltr de lorx..
omg.. it's 318 am liao la..
nd 2 wake up at 815 liddat lorx..
mum n dad will surely scold if they knew tat..
ends wid tots of de moment ba..
tots of de moment: i nd 2 push myself up again..
2 de old self where im happy n carefree..

cant believe it!!!

2006-12-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

oh man..
i cant believe it..
im missing amelia, my mummy liao le..
tink she oredi in thai liao..
she went there wid her family 4 holiday..
n me lei.. all alone in spore suffering..
sob sob..

AMELIA IM MISSING U LE..
bet she's busy sneezing now.. cos im missing her..
hahas..

i noe i shld b busy studying now..
but will b sian too de ma..

oh man.. im dwelling on him again..
i sort of broke my promise to amelia lei..
sorry..
but i juz cant stand nt tinking of him lorx..
im tinking shld i give him up?
liddat i wont feel so worse till i hav illusions..
i tink im having illusions la..
omg.. liang shan bo yu zhu li ye is so nice sia..
is a song la..

shld i or nt?
after de exams..
im gonna make meself busy wid gg out, running,
gg 2 gym, projects n lots more..
i shant make meself having any moment tat i can tink of him..

tat will b a deal to meself..
liddat i wont get too depressed..
but hor..
i cant believe i cant get any1 2 go out wid me on fri lorx..
i wan 2 go out on fri lei..
smbody come n date me..
i dun wan 2 stay at hm!!

i dun wan 2 study now..
cos my mind now is oredi in de i-dun-wan-2-do-anytink mood le..
nd sm1 to talk to.. or sm1 2 scold me 2 go n study..
but hor..
in de day my mood nt liddat de lei..
how come ar?
haiya..
tink i beta go back n study ba..
if nt really gt ppl come n scold me..

n thanks to esther-jie..
she saw my last few entries i tink..
den came 2 cheer me up..
thanks..
i din tot tat anybody will come n cheer me up or smth lorx..
oh man.. i realise i din drink any single drip of water since morning?
i muz take care of meself lyk wat i promise amelia..
den liddat can go out wid her..

shall go back to studies liao ba..
end wid tots of de moment..
tots of de moment: i wan 2 shout out 2 him tat: he has no right 2 barge into my mind.. n cause all de pains im having now.. AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

smth's wrong wid me..

2006-12-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

seriously, i tink smth's v wrong wid me..
my mood nowadays always stuck in either siao, i-dun-wan-2-do-anytink or sad mood..
how come liddat ar?
muz b pms-ing la..

smbody save me..
mayb i shld eat more bananas..
saw fr a email..
bananas can help in regulating de glucose lv in blood..
so tat means pmsing gt smth 2 do blood la..
so.. i shld eat how many bananas each day lei?
but is there a limit 2 how many 2 eat each day?

smth's wrong wid my comp speakers too..
i turned it softer le..
but it was getting louder by itself after i tuned de vol.
wierd ar?
hahas.. muz b me go pass de kuku virus 2 de speakers le..
or de speakers pass it 2 me..
cos my speakers has been tat siao since long time ago lorx..

today on de way hm on bus..
saw de writings on de back of de seats..
den gt 1 talking abt..
if u like smbody u shld let him go..
but if u dun let him go.. n he doesnt even lyk u.. how is he gg 2 b happy? i den dun wan 2 b so selfish lorx..
den another writing after dis..
if u lyk tat person u shld let him go..
i agree wid de statement when de love is one-sided..

since it's one-sided.. it will b v hard 4 tat person lorx..
den de person hu's being loved is 幸福 de lorx..
幸福= lucky..
so im at de hard side lorx..
so at times i feel lyk giving him up..
but..
真正的喜欢是不会因为一点小挫折而放弃的..
it means if u really lyk smtink or person will nt bcos of small obstacles den give up on it le..
but if i everyday become sad bcos of tat..
is small or big obstacle?
den if meet big obstacle den can give up la?
haix..

dun tink of him liao la..
these few days i might nt b updating cos..
mid-sem exams r here!!!
it starts at 11dec n ends at 15dec 4 me la..
so after tat..
i will b updating my blog more frequently ba..

i tink i gotta stop here..
cos wan 2 slp la..
1 of my fav song im listening now.. imagine me w/o u..
by jaci velasque..
okie.. end wid tots of de moment!
tots of de moment: i gotta start studying ob tmr during my break!!

oh man.. im at it again..

2006-12-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

oh man..
im at it again..
de dun-wan-2-do-anytink mood lorx..
argh..
wat's happening 2 me..
i tink im pms-ing la.. haix..

i juz watch finish de show called "Silence" on youtube..
wa.. y muz de ending b so sad de??
i noe i shld b studying cos exam's at 1 wk's time..
but i tink my mind hear de word 'exam' den sian lorx..
so will in tat mood lorx..
SABRINA.. get over it!!!

smbody juz scream her head out of her or smth la..
muz wake her up fr tinking of him n all tat stuff lorx..

after typing all these stuff seems wking abit lei..
mayb bcos i dun wan ppl 2 scream head out of her or smth lorx..
so liddat..
im gonna try 2 finish my fa tut by today? i tink la..
but 1st muz finish de mbs tut lorx..
if nt wat 2 hand up tmr lorx.. hahas..
i suddenly realise smth..
i seem 2 b using lesser n lesser hahas liao le..
do i or do i nt?
am i getting less n less happy wid my life?
i dun wan my life 2 b unhappy lei..

mayb i shld juz give him up?
so tat i wont b so unhappy juz out of tinking of him..
sm1 tell me.. plz..
mayb now i dun tink so much of him..
after exam den gt lots of time 2 tink of him lorx..
mayb i shld do tat..

shld i go gym tmr when most of my tut nt done yet?
i tink i will noe de ans by tonite b4 i go slp?
tink so ba..
suddenly realise i gt lots of tink nd 2 b done..

tink i go get dinner 1st den finish my checklist one be one fast..
end wid tots of de moment den..
tots of de moment: i gt tons of tinks nd 2 b done.. shld waste too much time on tinking of him.. bleh~
p.s. it's my favourite song of de "season" tat im listening to now : Unfaithful" by Rihanna!
i noe tat song is saying abt a girl being unfaithful.. but de way Rihanna sings it seems nice n sexy.. hahas..
okie.. dinner.. here i come!

argh..

2006-12-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

argh..
am i a v nice target 2 b bullied?
y almost de class lyk 2 bully me??
haiya..

they r building their happiness on my unhappiness lorx..
=(
but i tink i get used 2 b bullied by them liao lorx..
so i tink im soon getting immune of their bullying n teasing lorx..
poor me ar? =(

yea!!
amelia's coming 2 tp n hav lunch wid me finally!!
cos juz tok 2 her on de phone ma..
we talked abt 1 hr n 15 mins lorx..
long rite?
but gt alot of tinks 2 say ma..
n gemini has gt alot 2 say..
so if u r a gd listener..
woohoo..
u can come n b my fren n listen 2 wat i hav gotten 2 say!
hahas..

today i tink im damn suay de lorx..
cos today's a tut day ma..
den de 1st tut is microecons tut..
den cos of de seating position den i gt 2 get up..
n move my chair.. so i get 2 c wat they doing ma..
den after writing de ans down on de transparency..
i was trying 2 move meself n chair back 2 original postition..
den suddenly a thought float up into my mind..

they r so gg 2 make me present dis tut.. cos it seems lyk i din help much in de
ans lorx..
den really 1 of my classmate says eh.. sabrina..
u go n present lei..
den i cant reject it ma..
so no choice lorx.. i go up lorx..
so when i was making my way to de front..
tat classmate of mine shout out his name i tink..
den de whole row of boys sitting together starts laughing lorx..
but since im oredi nervous enough le..
plus i din really catch wat's he saying lorx..
so din really get too agiated wid tat classmate lorx..

den another suay tink happens 2 me again..
during de psychology tut..
suppose 2 present..
den suay suay kena me..
den when kena me tat time..
i suddenly shout..
de whole class turn 2 my direction n c i tink..
den pai seh le.. so bend my head down..
but din la.. den qickly push de transparency 2 another grp member..
den tat girl din wan..
so another fren sort of volunteer 2 go instead lorx..
n so i din go up at last.. hee.. =P

hey.. i tink im gg 2 stop here la..
gotta slp le..
tmr gt assignment smmore..
is small test n it's open bk!
hahas..
so gt 2 slp n hav energy..
end wid tots of de moment!
tots of de moment: i wish tat 1pm will come quickly.. so tat i can meet amelia, my mummy! =)

a quick one..

2006-11-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

i tink dis post will b a quick one ba..
cos it's oredi 2 plus in de morning liao..

oh man..
tmr still nd wake up early liao..
u all might c dead coprse walking arund ba..
dun fear..
it's me la..
it's nt dead coprse..
im still living n kicking..

i still wan 2 tink of him de lorx..
was telling my fren tat she shld nt compare herself wid others..
cos everyone is unique n special..
u might find sm1 tat resembles u..
but u cant possibly find sm1 tat will hav de same actions n tinking as u ma..
so hueva u r..
dun b sad.. dun get too depressed till
i nd go visit u in imh in jan hor..

cos my psychology requires us 2 make a trip down 2 imh 2 visit ma..
im visiting there.. nt gg there..
mayb i might go there..
hahas..
i noe smbody might tinking im hua chi(gg kuku over smbody)
but wat 2 do?
im in dis bottomless valley le..
haix..

i tink i stop blogging liao la..
gotta 2 catch my Zzzs..
nite..
end wid tots of de moment ba.. hee..
tots of de moment: hope my mum get well soon!! =)

smbody save me!!!

2006-11-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

smbody scold me or wake me up..
plz..

i seriously nd smbody 2 scold me n wake me up..
if nt.. i really dun noe how am i gg 2 finish my wk lorx..
today when i sit down n do my wk..
i feel so sianz..
so since 1040 liddat..
i hav been slacking till now..
i dun noe how 2 make meself get into action lorx..

i noe tat im gg 2 hav nt enough time 2 finish my wk..
my revision.. since exam's coming..
my project..
how am i gg 2 cope?
n plus de sad gotten out when i tink of him..

did i say he's asking me 2 go n find him..
during our sch de open house?
i v scared when i go find him..
i might c alot of girls flocking arund him..
if i c tat..
i might juz break down or wan 2 faster run away fr there..
even if he saw me n calling me lorx..

tat muz a damn funny n embarrassing scene ba..
i tink i will juz quietly slip away..
den if he saw me..
i tink i will juz say hi or smth..
unless he strike up a conversation or smth lorx..

den i tole my fren abt his nick..
den she seriously tink he's gg 2 b knight lorx..
den she tease me..
saying tat he's my knight in shiny amour..
i hope so la.. hee.. =P

i guess im really losing marbles..
according to amelia la..(cos i was gg kuku when i tok 2 her..)
was talking 2 her on phone yest nite..
for abt 1 hr plus lorx..
den today kena scolded by my mum 4 nt slping early..

so today when i came back hm fr my mum's appointment..
i went 2 slp 4 3 hrs liddat..
den after waking up..
i gt no mood 2 do wk le..
i nd sm1 2 scold n wake me up lorx..
act.. i nt only no mood 2 do wk..
but i gt no mood 2 do anytink lorx..
wat's wrong wid me???

but hor de fa tut seriously has tons n tons of qn lorx..
cos my tutor has made de optional qns to compulsory..
so as 2 earn de participation marks.. i guess..
if nt 4 de optional qns.. i only hav 2 do 6 qn...
now i gotta do 9 qns!!!
n de qns r nt short at all lorx..
argh..

but i tink de tutor wans us 2 pratice lorx..
i shall go do it after i blog finish ba..
soon i tink...

oh ya.. my fren says tat purple is colour of depression..
really meh?

den liddat i since young depressed till now liao lorx..
purple has been my favourite since young lorx..

den still gt amelia saying tat purple is de colour 4 gay..
cos i tole her tat de look alike is wearing purple on friday..
hmm.. ppl muz b wondering..
wat look alike is she toking abt..

okie.. there's dis guy tat i suddenly realise tat he sort of resemble him lorx..
but hor i v scared tat is my eyes n my mind playing tricks on me lorx..
i hope nt la..
if i tink im really gg kuku over him( i mean de real 1)
okie.. as i was saying abt de look alike..
since i find out abt tat..
so i tole my fren abt lookalike..

juz when i was telling them..
1 guy fr my class overheard..
i guess i speak too loud ar.. =P
dun noe is coindence or wat..
tat classmate knew tat lookalike..
so fr den my classmate keep teasing me abt de lookalike lorx..
bcos of tat lookalike n him..
i was bullied on fri.. =(
sob sob..
my project grp n tat classmate keep teasing me abt him, de lookalike n tat malay guy lorx..
sian la..
they really gt nth 2 do lorx..
keep making me their source of happiness lorx..

okie la..
i gt 2 stop blogging le..
gotta do fa tut!
shall end wid tots of de moment..
die la.. tat malay guy is online le..
tots of de moment: oh man.. i nd sm1 2 'push' me 2 do wk lorx..

in sch :)

2006-11-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

im in sch lab now..
suppose 2 disucss project..
but we cant decide on de forms of bullying..
so wait till de other 2 members come den decide..

so now i shall blog lorx..
hahas..
haiya..
my fren is out 2 make me jealous lorx..
argh..
she tole she saw him yest at sch..
haix..
i noe she n him de sch is same building..
so if she c him nth's surprising..
but still.. haix..
y nt me c him lorx..
even if c him i tink i get tongue-tied lorx..

shant spoil my mood bcos of my fren saw him..
im finally gg 2 gym le..
juz hope on fri wont hav anytink cropped up lorx..

today nd 2 accompany my fren 2 a talk..
fr 6-7 lorx..
juz hope de talk can finish earlier or smth..

de sch colour ink printer print damn slow sia..
even de tortoise can move faster than de printer lorx..

i tink i gt stop blogging 1st..
tonite i will blog sm more!
tots of de moment: i nd a long long long slp!

pai seh..

2006-11-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

hee.. pai seh sia..
hasnt been blogging since de past 2 days..

cos my house suddenly gt 2 little kids staying over..
cos their mum went 2 china 2 visit their dad
hu's wking over there lorx..
act they still gt 2 other siblings de..
but imagine a house wid so many kids..
i tink my mum will go crazy taking care of them when they all ended in a fight wid each other lorx..
i noe tat me n my bro suppose 2 help..
but i gt so many tuts nd 2 do..

den bcos of them staying over so last 2 days im been slpaing earlier than usual lorx..
so now as usual im staying up late..
cos i wan 2 try finish most part of my fa tut..
den can mmet lihua, my godsis..
4 a jog!
nt tat i will keep jogging or wat la..
but it's been a long time since i exercise liao.. hee..
i tink since juz b4 e last sem de exam ba..

i tink im gg 2 ask my 'gym gang' 2 continue 2 go gym fr dis fri onwards ba..
yea! miss de times when i go gym wid them..
they r esther, amrita, nina n yun fang..
i knew yun fang n nina thru squash..
den amrita thru esther n nina..
den esther is my sec 1, 2, 3 & 4 classmate!(hee..)
eh.. wait.. de last time i went gym is de 3rd wk of holiday la..
wich is de 18 of sep wk lorx..
after tat wanted 2 go again..
but still cant.. haix..
u noe wat happen?

i fell sick.. boo!!!
i gt cough, flu, sore throat lorx..
all thanks to de kids in childcare lorx..
where i wk during holiday la..
even though i wk there abt 1 mth liddat only..
gt lots of memories there..
i cried there.. i noe is kind of awkward la.. but cant control ma..
i fought wid them..
i played wid them..
i had fun wid them..
i teased them..
they tease me..
they bully me..
nt fair rite? they all ganged up n bully me lorx..
but still i won.. cos im de cher.. hahas..
using my authority.. =P
but oso manage 2 get a few really a few kids 2 stay n take shots wid them..
i noe i look sort of retard in de pic..
but i wan 2 make their impressions of me as fun n cheerful cher n nt fierce cher..
lyk 1 of de p5 girl.. she call me as xiong ba ba de lao shi..
i had 2 b fierce smtimes ma..
if nt ltr they get too noisy..
i might lose my job or smth lorx..
hahas.. last 2 days over there seems 2 b de funest ba..
(is there a word called funest ar?)
cos i had a p4 class on de last 2nd day..
den they all finish their wk liao.. so i let them relax abit..
n they play de zhong ji mi ma..
is a game where smbody tot of a no. den ppl will take turns..
n guess a no. if tat person suay suay.. gt tat no.
den he/she will hav 2 do a forfeit lorx..
so 1 of them suay..
but she dun noe wat 2 do..
den ask me 4 help..

guess wat i ask her 2 do?
hahas..
chicky dance!
hahas..
but me oso suay la..
cos tat student dun noe how 2 do ma..
so sort of force me 2 go up n do together wid her lorx..
den dun noe y tat day seems so sporting..
juz go up n pull her together n start doing it lorx..
after doing it..
de whole class was erupting wid lots n lots of laughter lorx..
great!
i love making ppl laugh.. nt as in making meself a clown or wat la..

omg.. i write a post tat's de longest since i started blogging ba..
gotta stop le..
if nt tmr, my frens really will c a real panda walking towards them ba..
hahas..
shall end wid tots of de moment again!
tots of de moment: shld i continue doing my nails anot? & him!!! =P

dun lyk 2 b alone

2006-11-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

wat's de feeling when u r alone in crowded places?
i dun lyk tat feeling..
act i hate it la..
really really dun lyk 2 b alone..

everytime when i was wid frens..
den i tot of being alone..
is nt tat scary..

but when im really alone..
tat was when i really taste wat's being alone..
it seems tat u r a loner..
u gt no frens.. no life.. no everytink lorx..
damn scary d lorx..

mayb us bcos if my horoscope sign..
so i cant stand being alone?
or wat?

issit really okie 2 b alone in crowded place??
i dun tink so lei..
wat u tink?

gotta end here..
nd slp badly..
tots of de moment: him!! =)

happy la..

2006-11-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

i dun noe wat shld i say lorx..
im juz happy la..
lalalala..
lalalala..

was talking to him online yest..
n he ask me if i gt help out in our sch de open house anot..
i say din..
den he lyk abit disappointed..
but i din realise den..
den ltr he say..
i can mayb stay awhile in sch walking thru de open house tink..
or go 2 sch of it n find him lorx(he tole me tat sia!!)
i din noe wat he mean until i sort of tell my fren abt de open house tink lorx..
happy la..
i tink im gg kuku again liao..
all bcos of him..
hahas.. :P

today (wed i mean)dun noe y so hyper lorx..
i 1st time since sch started had nvr walk so fast b4 w/o my fren asking me to lorx..
hahas..
den i keep disturbing ppl during de lecture..
den my fren.. act is alot of them la..
keep disturbing me abt tat malay guy la..
den they anyhow pass msg saying i love him.. omg lorx..
den tat malay guy oso so thick skin..
reply 2 them saying tat he love me too..
SIAO AR!!
he dun wan 2 live liao.. issit?

i noe my frens r all being childish la..
but wat 2 do?
i cant possible go up 2 them n stuff sm stuffs inside their mouth 2 shut them up rite?
den worse..
cos my ob project..
me n my 2 other frens do wid him n 2 other malay guys..
so in de project..
they all suggest tat we break into pair n find de ways..
cos we nd 2 find 3 ways 4 trying 2 stop de bullying 2 happen lorx..
so my 2 frens pair themselves..
den de other 2 malay guys pair themselves up too..
so left me n him lorx..
sianx..
den after pairing themselves up liao..
u noe wat they tole me?!?!
they say they all agree wid de pairing up lorx..
n tink in de same way abt de pairing lorx..
(p.s. all de while during de grp discussion he was nt there.. cos he din noe there's a discussion lorx.. argh..)
since they oredi spell it out liao.. wat can i say..
haix..
wat a day..

when de lecture tink happen..
i really hope tat my he was there..
trying 2 protect me or smth..
but if he was there..
i dun tink he will do tat..
he will juz laugh at me ba..
argh..

juz hope tmr.. i mean thrus.. today..
will b a beta day!!
okie.. beta go slp le..
if nt mum will scold de..
shall end off wid de tots of de moment!!
my tots of de moment: i wonder if anyone is curious 2 noe wat's de name of my he.. nt tat malay guy la.. lol.. im nt being racist here.. n im hungry now..

2006-11-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

i guess it's oredi a habit 2 slp late lorx..

gotta change tat habit..
oso gotta change de habit of muz hav comp switch on in front of me when im doing tut..
muz change la..

tell u ar..
today(act yest, nov 14) is my most most most most suay day i eva hav lorx..
1st in my tut class..
sm malay guy sitting beside anyhow say tat he's my bf lorx..
n plus he has gf oredi lorx..
i den dun wan kena beaten up by de gf lorx..
i oso dun wan 2 b bf snatcher lorx..
n + i dun even lyk him more than a fren lorx..

so nvm abt tat..
de most most most suay tink had happen to me..
i sort of fall down when i was walking down de lt stairs..
is lyk i fall down w/o making any noise..
everybody wont even notice tat smbody fall down..

but stupid me..
when i was falling down.. wa..
i let out a damn high-pitch de scream n "plot"
down i go..

n i was in de position where my fren describe as
"kneeling down n proposing to smbody lorx"
n suay suay.. tat person tat was next to me when i fell..
is tat guy hu in de tut class embarrass me de lorx..

when i fell..
my mind was *blank*
n i still can hear abit of wat my fren say..
they were all gg lyk"sabrina.. u okie anot?"
"sabrina.. dun cry lei.."

den i suddenly lyk juz day-dream finish n
say tat im okie.. n i wont cry.. (i really wonder tat did i say tat.. or i was imaging myself saying tat)
den okie.. i trying 2 act cool 2 go down n sign de attendance list..
wich was lyk de other side of de lt lorx..
tat cher v wat lorx..
P06 n P05 was sitting at de right hand side of lt n he put de list at de left side of de lt lorx..
den 4 P01 n P02 is vice versa lorx..
den when i was walking 2 de attendance list..
tat cher went after me..
asking me okie anot..
expect me 2 tell him im nt okie..
im damn embarrassed now..
n my leg is hurting..
n i juz wan 2 dig a hole n bury myself.. issit? lol..
but still i tole him im fine..

but still after tat lecture still gt another lecture lorx..
bullshit tat zahid..
on purpose say damn loud inside de lt
telling me..
"sabrina, walk properly hor.. dun fall down again hor.."
bullshit him la..
i oredi trying 2 clear my memory of tat liao..
still wan 2 rub salt on wound lorx..
ARGH!!!

oh man.. ltr still nd 2 do project wid him lorx..
surely suan me de lorx..
oh plz.. as if im nt badly hurt liao..

oh great.. me left leg now is numb sia..
dun noe wat happen to it sia..

he faster reply me lei..
juz now talk 2 him..
till now haven reply lorx..
idiot..
but he juz now ask me 2 find him during our open house..
cos he wan show me smth.. (wierd huh?)
hahas.. but still he talks to me rite?

i tink i beta stop typing ba..
if nt dun nd slp le..
okie..
here's my tots of de moment:
hope tat bad luck wont pester me anymore.. plz.. mr nice bad luck..
since u r nice.. go n pester smbody else.. cos they nd sm1 nice 2 pester them..
i gt nice ppl arund me le.. :P

im so bushed..

2006-11-14T02:28:00.000+08:00

im so bushed sia..
so dis post gg 2 b short n sweet i tink..

i finish fa tut finally..
n i finish a movie lorx..
it's called bring it on: all or nth..

i dun wan 2 go into details abt it..
mayb de next post or smth la..

today was okie ba..
went out wid amelia..
n saw alot of familar faces..
1st on de bus i saw mr chia..
den when we were walking along de shops at east link..
i saw my student.. act is ex-student..
after tat.. on de way 2 tm..
saw maggie![she's still laughing de same way as b4.. miss her! :'(]
ltr.. amelia saw her fren.. hu i dun noe la..
lastly.. i saw jacinth n ai ping lorx..
tell u ar..
de moment i saw ai ping i really cant stop laughing lorx..
dun noe y too..
so they were asking amelia smth..
but i was staring at ai ping.. n started laughing de moment she start talking..
hahas..
ppl arund there muz b tinking tat i muz b mad liao lorx..
keep laughing non-stop..
but really la..
i din get laugh so madly since i graduate fr sec sch?

i miss sec sch life sia!!!
really la..
as ppl say sec sch life will b de best time of their sch life lorx..
i tink it's really true..[ sm ppl will go *shake head*]
but it's nt applicable 2 sm ppl la..[sm ppl muz b nodding their head]

i dun care la..
sec sch life is best time! esp de sec 3 n 4 life..
even though there's alot of test n all tat..
but i feel so belonged n united over there..
statement of 3a(04)/4a(05)
"small beginnings, GREAT endings.."
i miss them!!

oh ya.. i did say short n sweet post rite?
pai seh la..
okie.. end off wid..
tots of de moment: im bushed, missing my 3a/4a times n him! haix..

-dun noe wat's de title- lol..

2006-11-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wat shall i blog on today lei?
i really gt no idea sia..

let me tink.. tink.. tink..
okie..
juz posted de journal entries to my project de general ledger..
den realise i dun noe how to lorx.. i tink..
but since it's nt de way wich we normaly do lorx..
so nt used to..
gotta ask my fren tmr..
but still i tink i posted correctly ba..
hope so ba..

i seriously tink tat im gg 2 get sore throat or smth lorx..
these few days dun noe wat happen 2 me lorx..
keep slping damn late lorx..
den drinking too little water..
den now i tink smth wrong wid my body..
is aching here n there.. n pain here n there lorx..

dun care la.. i act did smth silly sia..
cos i wanted 2 noe if he noes i gt a blog.. or did he even read my blog anot lorx..
so i talk to him online..
i noe he doesnt read blog..
but i scared tat he busybody wan 2 read my blog..
den i die la..
almost de whole blog's talking abt him lorx..
haix..
juz hope he wont hav de time 2 come n read my blog lorx..

wat i did is really silly rite?
juz went up 2 him n if he read my blog anot?
i muz b kuku le..
or muz b my frens all pass de siao virus 2 me..
or issit bcos im oredi siao le?

wa.. sianx..
tmr's tut starts at 9am sia..
smmore is mbs tut..
de most sian tut i tink..
oh ya.. nd 2 double check if i really do finish my access hw liao ma..
if nt.. tmr tat tutor check tat time n i nvr finish..
she's gonna minus a small pt of participation marks..
(cos she count dun noe how many small pts to make a big pt, wich is 1)

i tink i beta go slp le..
if nt tmr my frens will really c a v big black ring arund my eye le..
will blog in more tmr.. bye..

my tots of de moment:
i juz wan 2 b pampered n loved by him..

read it..

2006-11-11T18:24:00.000+08:00

omg.. dis is so true abt me lorx..
esp de note part.. hahas..
n i enjoy sour treats.. :P

Your dominant element is wood.
The ancient Yin-Yang scholars saw wood types as true nature lovers--could you happily do without a TV?
Wood people are generally very driven, eager to be the best at whatever they do.
They just need to remember not to get too frustrated if things don't turn out exactly as planned... The nature of wood is embodied in a tree.
Wood encourages a tendency to aim high while at the same time keeping your feet firmly on the ground. Trees grow patiently. (am i patient? i highly doubt so lorx..)
The element of wood helps us to plan things in a logical and practical way.
Trees often try to outgrow each other to get the best light and to develop the strongest roots. The wood element therefore encourages a competitive attitude.
Natural environments inspire the positive qualities of wood. But the high buildings of a city can also stabilize the connection between the sky and the ground.
A windy climate is best for wood as it helps blow old leaves off the twigs and branches and stimulates new growth.
The color that is associated with wood is green. (but i like blue lei.. how come liddat ar?)
Wood types enjoy sour treats. (i luv it sia.. but im nt pregnant or smth la..)
NOTE: Wood types tend to be either tall like trees or short like bushes.
They often have strong eyebrows or a prominent jawline.

after reading tat esp de note part..
i seriously tink it's true sia..
okie.. im short la..
but do i hav strong eyebrows or a prominent jawline?

love hurts..

2006-11-11T02:51:00.000+08:00

i tink love really really hurts..
when u luv tat person but tat person dun lyk u back..

i guess im a living eg..
i was reading a post of fren of mine..
quite true ar..
u r lucky if u lyk tat sm1 n tat sm1 oso lyk u back..
it's really easy 4 u 2 fall in luv wid smbody
but it's difficult 2 let de person noe u like him/her..
n when u say it le..
he/she might juz avoid u or
even worse reject u in ur face..

i guess i din really experience de extreme cases ba..
but still im hurt..
n i tink it hurts me badly..
n plus fr other past stuffs tat i tot wont hurt me..
all de hurting effects come 2 me now..
so im hurt lyk siao..
im badly injured..
at left side of my chest.. my heart..
i dun noe my heart is fragile or tiny or wateva..
but i noe it's trying 2 b tough..
n trying nt 2 b so fragile..

i was tinking..
if i hav made de right choice den..
2 tell him..
shld i hav juz secretly admire him fr sm hidden corners??
or issit bcos i did smth wrong b4 i tole him tat?
den scare him off or turn him off or smth else??
sm1 ans me wat did i do?
or prehaps tell me wat shld i do now?
shld i juz sit down n wait lyk an idiot..
waiting 4 sm miracles will happen..
den liddat i juz hope miracle do happen on me..

smtimes i juz feel tired sia..
tinking of all these stuffs..
lyk i gt nt enough of tinks 2 care n bother n worry abt lorx..
i nd smbody 2 save me fr dis ordeal..
it's v painful 4 me..
really v v v painful..
it's unbearable..

haix.. i guess i write till here ba..
write in smmore ltr in de day ba..
signing off..

damn tired..

2006-11-09T17:45:00.000+08:00

dun noe y im so tired dis 2 days lorx..
muz b chatting wid peeks till late at nite lorx..
haix..

now my mind seems nt 2 b wking lorx..
plus de weather now is damn nice 2 slp in de lorx..
plus juz now tat psycho tutor seems lyk making me getting my Zzz faster..
i really wanna get sm Zzz sia..

but gotta do de bus stats tut 1st..
smth 2 do wid maths..
so i guess i shld b abke 2 perk up by tat ba..

or i can motivate myself by cotinuing my show on youtube ltr..
de show im chionging now is acted by f4 de zaizai..
de title is SILENCE..
i watch tat show is nt bcos of zaizai
but juz 4 fun..
den when i start watching it le
i was hooked up le..
i really hope shen shen(female lead character)
will recover her voice n ask zaizai 4 his name lorx..

gtg.. bus stats here i come!
p.s. bus stats plz dun make me fall aslp hor.. hee.. thanks.. =P

i wanna complain!!

2006-11-09T02:34:00.000+08:00

i wanna complain ar!!
stupid comp..
even though it can wk..
but
it damn slow sia..
n
it keeps hanging n lagging on me lorx..

wheneva ppl wan 2 chat wid online..
sure hav de alert tink rite?
so when de alert tink starts blinking..
there goes my whole comp..
i culd juz sit now there n finish a bk while waiting 4 it 2 load finish..
dis situation oso happens wheneva i open up de microsoft word or ppt lorx..
damn sian de lorx..

i guess i juz hope tat at de end of dis yr i can get a lappie!!
den happy lyk siao le..
i tink my bro oso will b happy..
cos liddat 1stly i wont snatch de comp fr him
2ndly de comp might b more faster
cos if i transfer all my files 2 lappie den de comp might process more fster ba..
tat's wat my bro tink.. im nt sure if it's true anot..

today damn tired lorx..
it's a miracle tat i can tahan till dis time lorx..
i guess i will stop here..
n bed sweet bed(my fren invent dis phrase.. hahas..)
blog sm more tmr ba..
looking 4ward 2 fri n meet amelia!! woohoo!! :)

juz another day..

2006-11-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

i wan 2 put music on my blog lei..
but i dun now how lei..
gotta figure it out smhow..

juz heard fr my psycho fren
we gg 2 do dental floss as de object of our psycho project..
i was.. huh? im using it every nite b4 i go 2 slp
n now im gg 2 focus on it 4 my project.. lol..

gt de urge 2 sing at kbox now again..
wa..
cant tahan le..
i tink i juz sing at hm wid my music switch on on de media player..
i wanna watch phua chu kang n mdm tan lei..
but my mum chase me in n do tut..
sianx..
gotta do lots of tuts n nd 2 copy notes fr my fren..
oh man.. i juz drop my bro's pencil..
2 times oredi!!
smmore roll till dun noe where lorx..
die la..
gotta find de pencil 1st..

let's c i gt wat tink nd 2 do..
ob(organisational behaviour) tut
psycho online quiz.. gt 2 lei..
copy bus stats notes..
bus stats tut
microecons tut..
fa(financial accounting) tut..
mbs(managing bus system) tut..
gotta type de journals to de softcopy form..
wa.. still gt..
de access hw..
n all de projects coming up..

sianx..
so many tinks 2 do..
tink ltr den type sm more ba..
gotta do my stuffs le..

bye!

oh man..

2006-11-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

oh man..
tmr's tut i haven finish yet lei..
but i dun feel doing it cos it's managing business system(mbs)
de next stage of computer system & applications (csa)
*i hate dis sub seriously*
*cos i dun understand wat de tutors n lecturers r toking abt n i always almost fell aslp in de lectures lorx*

wateva.. im gg 2 chiong it after writing dis post..
juz now tok 2 my buddy.. she's sad over him again..
haix..
den i tink abt myself..
oso none worser than her..
even though me n him gt tok..
but still haix..
i juz wan sm1 hu juz will put most of their time n heart on me lorx..

today he damn idiot sia..
act i wanted 2 make him jealous de..
but den ended he make me jealous instead
ARGH!!!

nvm abt him.. act wanted 2 typ finish dis post den go do tut de..
but my mum came 2 c wat im doing..
so i went 2 do finish my tut 1st lorx..
so now my tut's finally done..

today din really hav a gd slp cos my bro's running fever yest nite..
n plus my mum n dad nd go msia..
so my mum keep calling n check wid me abt his temp all tat..
n den she makes call at 7 plus 8 plus n 10 plus lorx..
liddat how i slp well lorx..
but ended i still slp till 10 plus.. hahas

eww.. de skin on my right foot de sole dried up..
nt nice oredi..
sob sob..
wateva.. will cure by itself in a few days' time.. :P

tmr sch start again..
oh ya.. nd 2 pass de loa.. gt 2 rmb 2 make copies of de death cert n get cashcard fr my dad!!
bye~ gotta slp.. will write again tmr.. i tink..

finally!!

2006-11-05T01:28:00.000+08:00

finally after so so so many days den i start my own blog lorx..

these few days i was in msia cos of my grandfather's funeral..

den i was tinking how is my funeral gg 2 b?
(i noe is sort of unlucky 2 tink of how's my funeral gg 2 b)
but
wat if..

i juz die de next moment??
so i tink thru 4 awhile abt de details of how's my funeral gg 2 b..
N
finally i tot of smth nice..
i wan my funeral 2 b in de theme of white n blue..
i wan a glass house n lots lots lots of curtains covering de windows..
den i dun wan having de funeral 2 b quiet..
mayb i might wan it 2 always hav music on..
but is nt filled wid de traditional kind of music..
instead is filled wid pop songs.. hahas..
where gt ppl de funeral so noisy de lorx.. muz b peaceful during tat time..
but i wan it different fr others ma..
so muz b noisy.. smtimes i cant stand 2 b quiet.. esp im alone lorx..

i seem 2 give alot of tots 2 it huh?
kind of scary sia.. when u read all those posts.. hahas..
it's nvr too early 2 get prepare lorx..
i noe y i wan a glass house le..
cos tat's my dream house..
i tink mayb i cant afford 2 hav tat kind of house when im living..
so when i die i shall grant my little wish..

de 1st psychology tut wich was last wk le..
de tutor ask us do a relationship test lorx
since im curious abt my tinking so i did it b4hand lorx

de test goes liddat.. (hav fun doing de test! ;P)
1. u r nt alone. u r walking in de woods. hu r u walking wid?
2. while u r walking u saw an animal. wat kind of animal is it?
3. wat interaction takes place btw u n de animal?
4. u walk deeper in de woods. u enter a clearing n b4 u is ur dream house. describe ur dream house.
5. is ur drem house surrounded by a fence?
6. u enter de house. u walk 2 de dining area n c de dining rm table. describe wat u c on n arund de dining table.
7. u exit de house thru de back door. lying in de glass is a cup. describe de material of de glass.
8. wat do u do wid de cup?
9. u walk 2 de edge of de property, where u find urself standing at de edge of a body of water. wat type of body of water is it?
10. how will u cross de water?

de interpretation goes liddat:
1. de person u walking wid u is de most person in ur life.
2. de size of de animal is de representative of ur preception of de size of ur problems.
3. de severity of de interaction u hav wid de animal is representative of how u deal wid ur problems.
4. de size of ur dream house is representative of de size of ur ambition 2 reslove ur problems.
5. no fence is indictative of an open personality. ppl r welcome at all times. de presence of a fence indicates a close personality. u wuld ppl nt 2 drop by unannounced.
6. if ur ans did nt include food, ppl, or flowers den u generally nt happy.
7. de durability of de material wid wich de cup is made of is representative of de perceived duability of ur relationship wid de person named in nO. 1 above.
8. ur dispostion of de cup is representative of ur attitude towards de person in nO. 1.
9. de size of de body of water is representative of de size of u sexual desire.
10. how wet u get in crossing de water is indicative of de relative imptance of ur sex life.